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2011-03-07T09:01:00.000-08:00

m.i.a for 1 year ? kayhh , backk . Hahh . I miss those people . Alot and alot of people .
Family ; parents , siblings , cousins , aunties , uncles , grandma's , grandpa's .
Friends ; slackers , schoolmates .
And mre ? All these kaki gereks . Gawdd . When can i see all of ue again ? Bleargh . Lyfe is unfair , really .

2009-09-11T06:22:00.000-07:00

Sorry darhh lame tarq update .
Comp buwat hal . Tskk .
Kayhh , Takeqaiire !

2009-07-31T07:40:00.000-07:00

Booooo !
Im bckk from Ncc training . Tired . Ill come for Ncc the next training . Andd Rukhyy (!) Ill tryy my best ayee . For me & her . U knowww . Hahhh !
Mom is not home yett . Wtf . Habes kerje kol 7 . Lpastuu , Gy rumah *kawan dhee . Maaaa ! Darhh kol 1044pm taoo . Tarq tawu narq baleq perhh ?! Haiyaaa . Klw kakak baleq lambat , pandai marah . Skrg , mama baleq lmbt . Kakak peyhh turn uqhh marahhh . Amciam ? Bleyhh . Cheyy , cmm brani jerq aqu . Hehh . Lagilagi , srohh kakak bohong nan papa . Klw papa kol dri keje , ckp mama tydo . Wth . Tambahhknn dosa jerq . Hehh .

Im bored . Im bored . Im bored . Im bored . Im bored .
Ohkayh , Bye .

2009-07-28T13:03:00.000-07:00

E-learning sucks to the coree . Grr .
Im done with Eng ONLY . Heartland book , ntaa hilang kemane .
Taq leyhh buwat Lit . Ohh , sucks . Physics , tb under the table . I dnt understand a single thing eventhough is a MCQ ques . Ohhhmyygawdd ~

`Jangan Pandang Belakang Congkak .
Best taq best uqhh people ? Mcm merepekk ajee . Hanis kate , kelakarr . Must watch . Hahh .
Ohkayhh , naq gy tngokk wayang nii .
Update later .

Anddd , is WEDNESDAY .

2009-07-28T02:30:00.000-07:00

Booooo ! Im at Meyra's house . Meyra and Mira ngaa tydo . Tadyq hyper narq mampos . Skrgg , gone . Tomorrow e-learning . Lpas e-learning kytekyte plan gy tngok wayangg . SUmpahh nie randomm narq mampos . Meyra arhh narq tngok Ice Age 3 . Mcm budaqbudaq uqhh qarn ? Haha . Following ; Me , AboiiBby (maybe) , Meyra , Mira , Faii (maybe) , Bobby , Jannahsygg && Opek (maybe) . At last , me and Meyra tukarr plan . Narq tngok cyter The Haunting . Looks scary ayee . Stand by ajee . Hahh .
Its 5:40pm andd going home soon (:
BYEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE .

2009-07-27T06:16:00.000-07:00

Yooooooooooooooo .
Hello earthlings .
Not going to updatee here soo often .
Pat blogg lagii satuu , yaa iyaa .
But , is private .
Sapesape nkk Allissa invite , tagg ayee and give your email .
Hah ~ Kayhh bye .

I love my Husband (:

2009-07-26T06:19:00.000-07:00

Blog sucks . Grr . Will post properly once is ohkayh . Huakkk .
Kayhh bye .

Iloveeyouubby.

2009-07-15T08:00:00.000-07:00

I miss ituu anak ^^ Nur Iffah Bte Abdul Wahid .
Manee menghilang bhyy ? GAWDDD ~ Miss you likee hell .

Nari , settle hal lpas skolaa . Jumper si BAPOK SIALAN . Somee people knoww who i am referring to .
Eyhh , kao cume EX aquu jerr larhh siaa . EX jerr ehkk . Tkdee lebeyhh lebeyhh arhh . Kao saper akuu siaa nakk srohh aku bukak Barble nii semue . Aquu yg tindekk , lidahh aqu pahh . Ade menyusahknn kao takk ? Ade ? Takk derr knn . Pukiitianks . Eyhh , kao masehh sygg aqu , kao peyhh psl uqhh . Aquu yg tindek . Jahat ponn jahat sendiri pahh . Tkdeerr nakk ikotikot orgg uqhh . Kaoo ckp Huda kate nan kao ygg aqu nkk patch nan kao . AQU NAKK PATCH NAN KAO ? EYHH LEKK SUAA . TKK DAPAT UQHH SIOL . SEJAKK BYLER AQU KATE AQU NAKK PATCH NAN KAO ?! perasannn juboooo .
Saperr ygg buat cyter nii skrg ? Laenn kali , selidikk btolbtol eyhh bruu bbl nan aqu . FCUKKK THIS BULLSHIT uqhh .

Gerammmmm aqu . Kayhh , chiilex . Lpas tuu , gy hgg . Jumper UdyBby . Miss hym alott oitt . Then , kol 0830 . Gerakk gy kedai kopi . Jumper budakbudak , drgg ngaa makan . Andd , byler ngaa otw gy kedai kopi . Aquu terbuat SPLIT . Fhmm ? Kireknn aqu jatoh larhh tuu ( split peyhh position . LOL ) Hah . Kekek perr . Lantaii basahh , beyhh terluper seliparr licin gyler . UdyBby adee mase tuu . Nasebb baekk kyte duee jerr eyhh . PAISEYHHH OII . Beyhh , kaki tros ngennnngot . Darhh sampai , beyhh kecohkecoh psl aquu jatoh . Ishkk . Babii dhe . Heh . gy street soccer . Nakk msok kol 0900 , naek rumah . Siapsiap . Beyhh , tukar begg nan Wieya Jepon . Meet UdyBby pat dpan liff , dhe hantar goo busstop . Then , HOME .

Call Meyra . Dhe bilang psl `NENEK YG JUAL KEROPOK . Fuhhhh . Serammm perr . Heh .
On9 . Chatt with ADIB DORAEMON . He told me smthh . Kayhh , tkk psl eyhh bhyy :DD
Kayhhh GO .

labels Dalam diamdiam kaoo backstab kyte eyhh .

2009-07-14T08:01:00.000-07:00

I miss nii duee badott . Yg atas , AlepSetan . Yg bawah , Taufiq . Ishkkk . Darhh lame seyhh tkk jumper krgg . Rinduu krgg sgtsgt . Rinduu 248♥♥ bnykkbnykk . Hehh . Klw free , akuu turon kayhh . Sygg krg .

Adib Doraemon ; Awwww . Sorry ayee . Ade reason ygg tertentu lerr . Anw , kamuu sweet !Hahahaha . Lol . Get Well Soon :DD

ImissUdyBbySOSOSOSOSOSOSOSOSOSOmuchhhh .

2009-07-13T06:55:00.000-07:00

Ribut mestii Ribut .
Kayhh , GO .

2009-07-12T01:03:00.000-07:00

Lihatt ituu anak ^^^ Grr .
Ngaa gado dgn dhe uqhh nii . Lpas satu , satu .
Tindek lidahh , case darhh tutop . Skrg , laenn pulakkk . Ishkk .

GOSSIP WHISPERER ;
Read your blogg and support you all the way . Update moree aytes ((:
Love you guys .

Labels ; you always think tht you are right . but , you'r not !

2009-07-10T05:13:00.000-07:00

Lihat ituuuuu ^^^
ADIEQ PAMPERED !
10 July birthday diaaaa :D
Hehe .
HAPPY BIRTHDAY , ADIEQ !
May all your wish come truee ayee :DD
Sorie klw grab picture ^^
ILY !(:

2009-07-09T07:37:00.000-07:00

Yooooooooo !
Ohkayh , this blog is dead , NOT . Heh .
Soo , schools sucks alotttttttttttttttttttttttttttttttttttttttt .
Hate the teachers (!) Bahhhs . I dnt want to go to school .
Grr . Kayhh , whatever .
Met UdyBby just now . Slack till 7-8 , then head home :DD

INN ;
Case darhh tutop ? Confirm tarqq confirm ? Dngrdngr si pmpan ygg panggil Lisa POMPAN , tuu narq jumper Lisa ?
Pikir Lisa narq rampas mataey dhe perr ? Hah . Lekkk suaa . UdyBby is moree wayyy hawterr dripade dhe peyhh mataey uqhh eyhh .

MEYRA ;
Aqu bukann minah rep larhh seyhh . Kao tuu hah :D Grr .
Sumpahh siol , *nana (dkat lidahh) mcm FCUKK siaaa . Gerammm aqu .
Klw tahuu , takk buat eyhh meyra . Tapi , no regrets (!) Aqu sukerrr laahh abeyhh .
Heh .

Bsokkk ade Maths , Eng , Physics .
Maths , hw lomm biken .
Eng , go through whatever shit hw .
Physics ? Forget it . Cabot uqhh cabot . Meyra , Hanis , Mirawr joinn sekaki uqhh kayhh ?

Kayh go .

2009-06-27T09:45:00.000-07:00

Happy birthday , ABOISTAR (24061992) & MAMAT (24061993)

Mamat (!) ;
Happy birthday Mamat ! Darhh tuaaa seyhh . 16 lagyq . Good luck for your 'N eyhh . Next year darhh bleyh amek 'O . Belajar pandai2 yerr . Hehs . May Allah bless you . SYG QAO !

Aboistar ;
Darhh 17 seyhh bhyy . You owe me 17 bash tao . Ingat tuu . Hehs . I sygggggg uu . Haha . I hope you like the cap tht i gave ^^ . Sorie kalau tkk lawaa .
Apeape pon , Ily bhyyy (!) May Allah bless you . Muackxx !
240609 ♥ Tht date will be always in my mind bhyy .

2009-06-20T01:57:00.000-07:00

Gambar lame seyhhh ; Semenjak hp tidakk ada . But , ive got a new one ! Yeay me .
Hehs . Anw , im back people (!)
But , will be away again ~ Soon . Andd , tkk dapat gy Spec Course ! Wtf .
SEAGENT (?) rankk hilangg seyhh . Haiyaaa .
Nehminddd . Aqu reda . Heh . Macam paham !
Mendaqqqqqqqqqqqqqqqqqqqqqqqqqqqqqqqqqqqqqqqqqqqqqqqqq .
Kayhh , bye .

I Love Ardilla !
:DD

2009-06-12T06:38:00.000-07:00

Going to malaysiaa tomorrow uqhh . Maybe , 22/23 June datangg balek s'pore uqhh .
Lamee oii ! ISHK !
Spec course , tkk pegy kot ! GOD !
Im gonna miss UdyBby larhh siols . I miss hym already .
Stand by uqhh , CRYCRYCRY . Haishh .

ALEPBBY ! Happy Birthday , Boiiboii .
UDYBBY ! Imyy larhh .
)':

2009-06-09T06:18:00.000-07:00

I miss UdyBby ♥♥♥
I miss UdyBby ♥♥♥
I miss UdyBby ♥♥♥
I miss UdyBby ♥♥♥
I miss UdyBby ♥♥♥

2009-06-07T09:59:00.000-07:00

Some stupidd idiot BADOTS tangan panjang , kapor aquu peyhh hp .
Tkperr . Nasebb aquu larhh eyyq .
Andd , RULES sudahh bikenn uqhh . Sialans .
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2009-06-02T08:16:00.000-07:00

Yeaaa , right ! Im at fault wat . I will back off when you tried to make me feel guitly perr . Hah ! Dream on ! Lick my pussy , mother fucker . I know how stupid i am when i back off and give up on this matter tht time . But , because of UdyBby who doesnt let me leave out of his life , i take back my words . You try me and now you step over my head uqhh knn . I did see your true colours , the real Lala . But , UdyBby doesnt . Now , he can be on/by your side for all i care . But , remember when time flies you will see what is gnna happen to your friendship with hym . I dnt give a damn uqh eyh . I will make sure UdyBby will know who is the real Fcukktard here . You really wnna see the real Allissa right . Just wait for the time to come uqhh girl .

I wanna a revenge . Ishhk . Dengar/Sebot name kao jerqq , darhh cm ERGH (!) Kao baru nampak aku peyhh lemah lembut knn . Dan memandagkan kao darh try aku , kao mesti kene . Tkk bleyh lepas uqhh . Gy jady pelacor sane laa . Gy jual badan sudahh . Bodoh peyhhh OINKOINK .

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Bhyy , jangan mimpi yang i akan message uu byler uu kluar dengan dhe on thurs and sat .
Pfftt .

2009-05-31T23:16:00.000-07:00

Kiwakk . Udy bilang laen , Laa bilang laen .
Gerekk perrhh ? Hah . I trust Udy larhh and I have my own reasons to it . Right , Dee ?
__ wtf urhh kann .
Im ohkayhh with Udy now . Only, for now .
Udy still side his BESTFRIEND . Duhh . Cause , he havent even know who is the real Laa uqhh . But , i promise myself tht im suree gonna let Udy know who is the real Laa . For sureee .
IDC . Some people is on my side . Dee , FahfahTOOTS , Wie . Ive only told them . So , yeaa .
Kayhh , nga mendaq . Darh plan to lepak dgn 248♥♥ nanti .
Tapy , tngok mood . Kalau malas , tkk jadyk kot .

To UdyBby♥♥♥;
Bhyyy ohh Bhyyy . Asl tkk reply ? Tido balekk perr . Babi uu . Bachin (!)

2009-05-30T03:45:00.000-07:00

June holidayyyyyyyyyyy (!) LepakLepakLepak with 248♥♥ .

UdyBby♥
Bhyy , if i have to leave you , cause i love you bby .

ImissUdyBby.

2009-05-28T08:22:00.000-07:00

Abgg Afee , thanks for the advice yeaa . But , you dont really get what i mean . Im just confused and i just dont know what to do animoree . It really sucks . Yes , it does . Allah , please help me .

We get comfort from those who agree with us and growth from those who don't.

2009-05-27T07:08:00.000-07:00

Lala . Udy 's bestfriend . GOD . I cant take it animoree . Why must blame it all on me ?

LALABECOKK [ forever will be her. ] says:
yo yo !
haahahs .
A L L I S S A ; says:
babe !
hello
LALABECOKK [ forever will be her. ] says:
sup ?
watcha doing ?
A L L I S S A ; says:
edit gambar .
kamuu ?
LALABECOKK [ forever will be her. ] says:
nehh.
pissed off.
A L L I S S A ; says:
why ?
are u okayh ?
LALABECOKK [ forever will be her. ] says:
no , im not .
A L L I S S A ; says:
do u want to be alone , first ?
LALABECOKK [ forever will be her. ] says:
nehh , i dont knw to who i shuld share with .
gawd ! wth .
you read my pm then you will knw .
A L L I S S A ; says:
ohkayh . udy .
LALABECOKK [ forever will be her. ] says:
yaaaaarh .
wtf !
A L L I S S A ; says:
Laa , relax .
if u dont mind .
andd if u are willing to .
then , share it with me .
i will lend my listening ear .
and , i will try my best to help you , dear .
LALABECOKK [ forever will be her. ] says:
nehh , i cn only share but i dont need ur help .
A L L I S S A ; says:
up to you then
LALABECOKK [ forever will be her. ] says:
nvm larh .
share with you also wont bring me anygood .
*good
A L L I S S A ; says:
ohkayhhh .
Look . Im really and truly sorry if im the one who is making both of you apart . But heyy , every single thing tht he have done , have something to do with it . We may not know who know and dont . Maybe i know . But , u dont . We can only find why is he doing to you like this , by himself . If you really treasure your relationship with hym , then do take the iniciative to talk with hym .
Im suree he have his own reasons to this .
LALABECOKK [ forever will be her. ] says:
BEB ! dont think like you knw it all . well hey ! ya knw wat . i dont need any advices frm you . for wat i knw, everytime we talked bout op is all about you you you,. i dont give a damn to tht but i hate it wen everything has to do with you.
*otp
A L L I S S A ; says:
me ?
fcukk .
LALABECOKK [ forever will be her. ] says:
yaaarh you.
he even dare to put dwn the phone with me coz of you .
!
just wtf is tht ?
i really dont care larhh korg matae kerh tk .
but i need some quality time with my bstfrn gakk .
wenever laa nk myt dye , dye mesti ckp tkle .
coz of wat , coz of he gonna myt you.
and slalu clashed .
nnt kite gado .
xiak uhh.
laa bukn benci lisa but i hate it this way larhh.
the only person tht truely rpt with me is aboi .
i cnt bear to lose a fren tht i love so much and i treasure so much.
i really cnt .
you feel he it feels to bel ove by the love ones.
but i dont , frankly i dont hve any matae at all .
i promised aboi alr tht i wont hve any .
but hey , i need him to be there form e.
he only talked to me wen he is boring or he need something frm me.
seriously m, IM REALLY HURT .
but i try my bst not to show it to him .
*hw
like just nw, i called him two times and he rejected my calls.
if he returned it , i really wont be this pissed off but he dont till nw.
i knw his ppd is low .
but gawd ! cnt he just replied me somehw .
i knw im acting like lala nihh matae dye or watsoever taek you guys wanna say.
but i dont feel it tht way.
for all i knw, i care for him as a fren and not more nor less.
really, i hate it this way and furthur more i hate both of you .
and i really do .
tell him the same thing i did told you to tell hikm b4.
*him
dont call me coz i really dont need it anymore.
thts all i wanna say.
im done .
gdbye.
and gd luck you guys.
just dont bother bout me. m
mend your own ways and i mend mine.
bye./

Lala wrote on her pm ; Dear Stupid Bestfriend ! // Fcukk i really hate you larh nb .

Yeaaa right . My fault urhh my fault . GOD . I dont even know tht he is talking about me me me when he was otp with you . Fcukk it . And now , you are all blaming it on me ? I cant really take it animoreee .

2009-05-26T03:04:00.000-07:00

lickk urhh lick .
Today was ohkayh . Accept for physics .
Fcukk Mr Ngio . Who wanna Fcukk hym ? You are invited .
He can dance for youu . He can give you compliments . Alot indeed .
Trust me and pay me 50 bugs . CRAP .
Starting from today , i must sit on the floor for every physics lesson . Hah . Why ? Cause i failed his subject and his not satisfy with it . But , he thanked me .
No problem , Mr Ngio . I can do it for you . Fail physics for you .
You are suchha great techer . Very .
Put this a side .

Ohkayhh . Udy , Alep and Nyet carikk Mok ? Pat 121 .
Woahhh . Aderhh hal . Gado urhh gado .
Udy told me tht . God . Hal aperhh pulakk eyhh ? Yang mane satu ?
Mok memang buat banyakk hal .
121 siols dorangg pegyy . Fuuuhhh .
Rabakk perhh . 121 ade budakkk2 ramai deyy . Darhh tentu tempat dorangg lepak .
Abeyh korangg , pegy cume 3 orgg ? Doinkkks .
Asl tkk bawak Bear , Taufiq semueee ? Yang laen ?
Ohh , nanti kecohh ehkkk . Terlupaa gue .
Tapy , jgn sampai angkat fight sudahh eyhh .
Korangg klw darhh naek peng , tkk ingat dunie . Pukol jerr mane ygg ade eyhh .
Good luckk urhh korangg .
Aku sayanngg sama korangg . Esp , UdyBby .

UdyBby , ILY !

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2009-05-25T07:10:00.000-07:00

Dee , LalaBechokk and Bear ;
Thanks korangg for being there for me . Help me dgn si diaaa byler kyte gadoo . Thanks friend ! I mean , Thanks Bestest Friends !

See that guy wearing tht black/white cap , black teee , the hands cover his face ?
Ahhhh . Itu diaaaa , UdyBby .

UdyBby imy !

2009-05-24T08:16:00.000-07:00

Abggg Afeee sudahhh tuaaaa ! Haha .
Birthday dhe larhh seyyy . Celebrate it with budakbudak pat 244 . Pathetic pahh ?
Watever . But what i know is , i have funn with budakbudak .
Maen bola , Maen Ali Bomb . Kacaw2 orangg . Bashhhh . Chubit sini chubit sane . Kejar sini kejar sane . Anddd alottt alott moree .
Yeaaaa , alott .

iloveUdyBby♥♥♥
iloveFahfah-Kecik♥
iloveWieKechik♥
iloveWieyaJepon♥
iloveEkaJoker♥
iloveHairyBo♥
iloveAbgAfee♥
iloveBear♥
iloveTaufiq♥
iloveAlep♥
iloveKamil♥
iloveNyet♥
iloveFirdaus♥
iloveAlim♥
iloveHashiiko♥
iloveNong♥
iloveAwul♥
iloveAziah♥
iloveZali♥
iloveFaisal♥
iloveBlack♥
iloveHadi♥
iloveMamad♥
iloveWendy♥
iloveNonong♥

ilove248♥♥

2009-05-23T02:55:00.000-07:00

Chatting with Dee Bby .
She give me advice this and tht .
This phrase ;
` Sometimes, even if its not ur fault, you should learn how to give in .
Thanks alott Dee Bby .

imissUdyBbyalott.

2009-05-21T02:04:00.000-07:00

Classmates and I went to Tiong Bahru to the disable people place . Have muchh fun with them . Andd , funny . 3E know , I know , you dont know . Right ? Uqhh , right . Have a class photo too . Lorraine and Ummirah missing . Apelarhhh luu orang . After tht , skip physics . Took 291 with Hanis . Head home .
Udyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyy <3

2009-05-20T03:04:00.000-07:00

imissudybbyalott )':

2009-05-19T06:39:00.001-07:00

Was tagged by AISHAH :D
1) Besides lips , where is your favourite spot to get kiss ?
` Cheeks , Forehead .
2) How do you feel when you wake up in this morning ?
` Sleeppyy horr .
3) Who was the last person you took photo with ?
` Udy baby .
4) Would you consider yourself to be spoiled ?
` Nehh .
5) Would you ever donate blood ?
` Insyallah . When im older .
6) Have you ever had a bestfriend who was the opposite sex ?
` Duhhh .
7) Do you want someone dead ?
` That fcukktard Hazim and Faris .
8) What does the last message says ?
` Kol i alek jap .
9) What are you thinking right now ?
` Si diaa .
10) Do you wish someone with you right now ?
` yess .
11) What time you went to bed last night ?
` 0100 .
12) Where did you buy the T-shirt that you're wearing right now ?
` Idk . Ncc shirt xD
13) Is someone in your mind ?
` Yupp .
14) Who was the last person who texted you ?
` Udy bby .
15) 10 people tagged to do this quiz .
` Eqa , Ardilla , Ila , Firah , Jeeha , Emily , Dee , Hafizah , Zarifah , Zayanah .
16) Who is 2 having relationship with ? Ardilla ;
` Melvin Liow Chun Kiat .
17) Is 3 a male or female ? Ila ;
` Female .
18) If 7 & 10 get together , would it be a good thing ? Dee & Zayanah ;
` They are not lesbiann horr .
19) What is 1 studying about ? Eqa ;
` The subject that is given by school .
20) When was the last time you had a chat with 5 ? Jeeha ;
` Idk .
21) Is 4 single ? Firah ;
` Nehh .
22) Say something about 2 . Ardilla ;
` She's way way taller than me .
23) What do you think about 3 & 6 being together ? Ila & Emily ;
` They are not lesbian horr . They have their own boifieyy anw .
24) Describe 9 . Zarifah ;
` Hornyy .
25) What will you do if 6 & 7 fight ? Emily & Dee .
` They dont know even know each other .
26) Do you like 8 ? Hafizah ;
` Yesss . MY bestfriend :DD

2009-05-18T01:00:00.000-07:00

ignore my face . CACAT .
yesterday went to hougang . lepaklepak .
at 0800 met udy , wie & kiki at 251 . they head to 244 . while me and udy head to whatever the block is . ohkayh , ihatemenses . mood swing . control it by not talking to him . he sent me to the bus stop . then , *this thing* come again . u know ? that thingg uqhh . that whitewhite thing . i kept quite andd diamm jeq urhh . and , udy says , "jgn bilang i yg u tngah mood swing skrg."
i kept quite . he hug me from behind . then , he says , "u asl ?" . i kept quite again and my back facing hym . he force me to turn to hym . but , i dnt want to . cause the thing is behind hym . far abit uqhh . then , i was force to turn . and , i cried . stoopid eyhh . tros he was likee , "asl b ? asl u nanges ?" i look down all the way and close my eyes . my leg cant stop shaking , i swear . i read prayer to myself . then , dhe darhh tahu . sbb , dhe ade simpan barang amd dhe darhh rase bahang . so , he can feel it . he hugg me . and i type on my phone , "tht thing is here . u see it ? u bleyh rase ?" udy angguk . and then , he look at me . i look at him . he hug me again tightly . then , he say to me "nanti klw bus darhh dtg . i nk u tros naek kayh b ." i didnt ans hym . kept quite . he hug me till the bus came . i went up uqhh . byler ngaa dudok , my leg cant stop shaking . fcukk tht thing . then , darhh sampai . darhh biase . tempat memang sunyi , gelap . jalan peyhh jalan . nampak tht thing and tht thing . buat bodohh . darhh sampai depan rumah . tros gy bilek . and , ddok pat atas katil , my leg still shaking likee hell . mom was like , "kak , knape kak ?"
tros , gone . pengsann larhh . then , darhh sedar . udy call mom . tanyer hows me and all . and mom pass the phone to me and he ask hows me . tuu pon jawab stakat , "uhh .." gtu gtu jeqq .
lemahh gyler maut nyeerr . byler darhh ohkayh cket . udy called home . dhe kate , " b . laen kali tkmo senyap senyap uqhh kayh . laen kali , bilang i tao . i worry tngok uu gtu . ermm , klw u tkk bleyh tido ker aper . just call me kayhh . i teman knn u . i tido lambat nari . lagikpon u tngah saket uqhh knn skrg . so apeape , just kol kayh b ." darhh bblbbl . then , put down the phone . baper min , tros tido . then , narii tkk goo skoool . gerekk uqhh gerek . 12 hours sleep or more .
papa doesnt know what happen yesterday . soo , mom say to papa tht today marking day . tuu psl aku tkk skola . kayhh , kene tipu skali sekale . kalau tkk , tkk leyh kluar malam lagii .
talked on the phone with udy just now . soo , yeaa .

thanks bby for being there for me .
ily .

2009-05-15T07:09:00.000-07:00

alep's edit . ohh , spelling error .
gahhhhs . today went out with alep to hgg . darhh sampai , ddok dgn hashiiko pat bwh blok for a while . then , wieya jepon and eka came . hashiiko follow mama ros go somewhere . then , alep and tht due badots go somewhere . i met udy . he give two batang . winner and malboro . winner sedapppppp . hehe . then , hugg hym . imisshym larhh . then , went to 249 , nyayi house . kluar lift nampakk alep , wie , mak long , due badots . wie , alep and mak long pegy turon . then i was likee , "nkk pegy maner?" . tros mak long says , "nanti naek balek . pegy anu knn ubat untok yayi ." lift close . ohkayhh . some misunderstanding between wieya and foreigner workers . till 0600 . lepak with taufiq , bear , eka and yan pat 244 . then , udy tron . ohkayh . step tkk kenal horr . standard . hehs . then , asked for udy batang through msgg . dhe tkk kasih . *point middle finger* . 0630 , me and due badots gerakk . salam taufiq , bear and udy . buat muke pat udy . pfftt . tros dhe panggil . i ignore . darhh jalan . that due badots chase me from behind . they gave me satu batang and say , "abg udy kasih" . i say , "tkperr uhh . kao amek uhh" too late udy . tunjok perangai eyhh kao , allissa . stop it siol . then , udy message . dhe kate . "u nk balek eyhh . u nyerr batang pat adawieya tao . i kasih u 2 ." i didnt reply . he message again , "b , please reply . u nk balek eyhh .. " i didnt reply yet again . and i went to adawieya and say ,

me ; ehh , tadik kao kasih aku satu batang knn . udy kasih kao bape batang ? lagii satu mane urhh ?
dhe ; satu aku peyhh uh .
me ; hah . kao biar betol ? ehh , udy bilang aku uhh eyhh . dhe kasih kao due batang . bnykk bunyi lagik . asl tkk gy mintak dhe .
dhe ; aku darhh mintak . dhe tkk kasih siol .
me ; klw kao nkk sgt sampai kao nkk kebas aku peyhh . mintak aku laen kali . klw kao nkk , mintak . jangan sampai dhe sendiri bilang aku . beyh , aku mengamok dgn kao baru tahu .

then , dhe diam . darhh paiseyhh urhh tuu .
and , alep call me from home . saying tht he is at home with wie . and , i straight away naek PENG . i was likee , "kate nkk naek balekkk?!" semuee tuhh uhh . i say , "rabakkk perhh . aku balek sorangg . paitao siol" . then , blablabla . anuu knn ubat yayi .
at 0800 , kluar . lepak with budakbudak skejapp . then , wieya jepon and eka went home . met udy . sent me to bus stop . hugg hym again . he's huggable (!) be jeolous people . lol . andd , home now .

and , taufiq ! since kao darhh nampak gambar aku dgn udy , diam diam eyhhh . klw budakbudak kecohh lagi , aku chubit kao bru tahu . pffftt .

me and udy are keeping our relationship as a secret from budakbudak , klw tkk kecoh . ohkayh . drgg darhh tahu , me and udy penahh jumper alone , kite due jerr . and slack .
nii pon , faisal ygg bilang . wtf .
dhe pegy announce pat semue budakbudak byler pat street soccer . baekbaek , drgg maen bola , dhe sroh drgg stop . beyh gather . and dhe diri , and ckp ;

faisal ; akuu nampakk budak kyte eyhh berdating berduaan sahaja .
budakbudak ; saperrr ? *curious*
faisal ; tekee uhh .

firsstly , drgg guess semue salah . sampai byler salah satu budakbudak kate ;
"ahhhh . udy dgn allissa ."
faisal was likeee , "ahhh . betol "
thenn , semue darhh tahu urhh . beyhh kacau2 . wtf .

ohkayhh , biar larhh .
lame lame ponn , drgg akn tahu jugak urhh knn ?
kayhh , imisshuggingudy.

udy bby , ily !

2009-05-14T04:14:00.000-07:00

alep's edit .
today f&n exammm . susahhhh lorhh . f&n student sat on the right side of the class . and the art student left side of the class . ohkayh . mdm and take our class for the first half an hour . i can see some of the f&n student were likee thinking likee hell . when mdm and step out of the class at 0830 , almost all of the f&n student put their head on top of the table and fall asleep . me too eyhh . nii semue case tkk belajar punyerr . then , at 0900 mr siva came in . he wake up the guys who are sleeping . and for the girls , he use his big butt and push the table . so that the table will be likee terangkat gtu uhh . funny . aku pon kene . *point middle finger* then , at 0900 almost all the f&n students were likee day dreaming , looking there looking here . at 0930 onwards , most of us started to do last page that is section c and mdm ang came in again . around 0945 , the f&n students were restless . can see horr . at 1000 sharp , when mdm ang say , "ohkayh stop writing ." we were likeee , "yesssssss" . what i know is i wanna eat lehhh . so head to mac with hanis and mirawr . then head to hgg . met udy . slack . head home . and online anddd see that fcukkktards hazim , online . so , decided to chat with hym . here how it goes ;

me ; thanks eyhh .
hym ; for ? lang uh .
me ; everything .
me ; kao tentu close dgn faris larhh knn . the so called *reason tht he gave to mira about the dnt contact animoree tingy , is tht a reason or an excuse ?
hym ; ye . dier gadoh ngn aku tk tentu psl . mane aku tao . faris ngn aku dh tk close ah eyk .
me ; skrgg perr ?
hym ; abe .
me ; ouhh . and thanks for mampat mampat perhh tingy eyhh . u win .
hym ; ape mampat ?
me ; hah . tahuu kerr tk tahu ?
hym ; tk .
me ; and ohh , TIGE KOSONG .
hym ; pe yg 3-0 . pe ko mepek .
me ; ohh . tk tahu eyhh ? game tuu darhh habes kerr lom ? yg kao dgn faris maen . saper kene blanje saper ?
hym ; ape yg blanje mkn ? ape ko mepek . game ape sak . ko mimpi pe .
me ; aku mimpi ? tkderr larhh . mane ade mimpi . nii reality dokk . still tkk fhm ? ohkayhh . wait n see .
hym ; tngah wait ni .
me ; * hazim ngah maen game dgn faris . hazim mintak no allissa becos dhe tahu faris tkk akn mintak no sbb faris pemalu . hazim dgn faris nga maen gami nii urhh . saper yg dpt most no . and byler allissa kasih no pt hazim , hazim came to faris and say , "TIGE KOSONG!" because , saper kalah kene blanjer makan . and hazim ckp dgn faris , "badan dhe mampat jugak" REFERRING TO ME EYHH . thats the story . so , wat can u explain for this huh ?
hym ; mane kao dngr ? ummirah ? eyk ? ah caye la dier . aku tkde tym nk lyn ko .
me ; hah . asl ummirah ?
hym ; aku nk pi maen game tu lagi . oryte . wish me luck yo .
me ; kireknn , btol urhh ni knn ? and asl kao guess ummirah ?
hym ; ade aku ckp btol ? aku nk try ckp slh , ko tknk caye . pe aku nk uat kn .
me ; aku nk pi maen game tuu lagi** LAGI.
hym ; ye la . ko ckp aku maen game tu pe . aku ckp tk , ko tknk caye . gasak ko la .
me ; hah ! bullshit larhh siol .
hym ; pape larhh eyk .
me ; and asl kao guess ummirah in the first place ?
hym ; nampak sah . sape lagi . ko nk pnggil sucker la , fucker la . gasak kol la nak .

THEN HE OFFLINE , STRAIGHT AWAY .
hah . KECOL ?
and i sent hym instant offline message , " hah . remember this . you cant escape from reality "
read the conversation that i have with hym . doesnt he looks like his guilty ? u see . maybe , i was block by hym ? tkk leyh kate perhh .
on tht time , he put his pm "TIGE - ZERO BABE ! "
and when i say , " ........ sape kene blanje saper?"
he say , " ape yg blanje mkn ?"
in the first place , ade aku cakap " ........ sape kene blanje mkn ?"
adeee tkkk ? tkdeee knn . and obviously kao darhh tahu aper aku nkk bobal psl aperhh . haha .
nkk step tkk tahu pulakk eyhh kao .
byler aku cyterknn kao tuu peyhh bende . kao tros kate , "aku nkk pi maen game tu lagi ..."
darhh obvious larhh knn , kao maen game nii , BAHADOL .
kao lagi bleyh ckp , " aku nk try ckp slh , ko tknk caye . ape aku nk uat kan ."
TRY PERHH BOII . hah . tkk try try ponn ?
"aku ckp tk , ko tknk caye . gasak ko la ." sejakk byler kao ade kate , TKK ? sejak byler ? tngokk conversation kyte cket , ade kao ckp TK ? tkderrr knnn . nkk coverrr ponn , tkk pandai .
hah . stoooopidd .
and ohh , kao buatt dakkk jerr eyhh . byler aku panggil kao , sucker nan fucker . mulia hati kao eyhh . setahu aku eyhh , klw ade orgg panggil dhe peyh so called *kawan gtu mcm . confirm orgg tuu mengamok . tapy , kao tkk pulak . ahsal eyhh ? sbb , kao memang darhh bersalah urhh knn . ada btol ? BTOL UHH BTOL .

that time , i put on my pm ;
" hah . kecol ? nyahahha . stoopid fcukktards . u cant escape from reality , FUCKER . "
and im still not satisfied with you and faris . just wait and see eyhh , boii .

TO RUDY ; hah . kao tkk tahu cyter , kao diam . aku tkk fana urhh eyhh .

sorry mira . but i have too . im finding the truth for you and faris . you get wat i mean ? but , i dnt really care about the mampat mampat tingy actually . i just came out with tht when he says tht he is not close animoree with faris .
ohhh , hope that our wish will be grant ohkayhh .
"doaknn yg DORANGG kene langgar dengan lori balak . beyh lori balak tuu lenyek dorangg kasih hancor semue badan dhe sampai bederai"
**pray v v v v v hard**

ohkayh . buat bersabar allissa .
andddddddd , UDY , _ _ _ (!) .
:DD

2009-05-13T03:35:00.000-07:00

the keychain that i bought for myself and hym . elmo tergantung pat hp kuu . cookie monster tergantung pat hp udy . :DD
after school , met udy and slack pat tempat biase , hougang . macam biase , bobal bobal semue . then , head home . on the computer (!) chatting with mirawr . and she told me something that really really made me pissed off . she know , i know .

to hazim ;

dngr dngr cyter eyhh nk aku pasal aku peyh badan pahh . beyh ahsal klw aku pah badan darhh memang gni ? nkk isap tetek perhh ? mehh cni mehh . SMACK KAO ! eyhh , tkk dapat urhh eyhh . mampat mampat nii semue . klw kao nkk sgt , pegy pat geylang sane . klw tknk , pat aljunied rumah aku cni darhh ade . hah ! banyak lagii . mampat mampat uhh eyhh . mauu ahk ? cibai . ehh , nii baru aku dngr urhh eyh . blom aku gy depan kao , beyh bobal dgn kao . baru kao tahu mampat ker tkk mampat . bobal belakang aku pahh boii ? hah . KENTALAN JUBO . kao dengan faris eyhh 2 x 5 . harapkann jerr darhh besar . tapi , perangai maseyh adeq adeq urhh siol .
muker korangg due eyhh kalahknn babi . stoopid fcukkktards .

2009-05-12T05:31:00.000-07:00

have maths and mt exams today . and maths , screw it . my calculator condemn . wtf . from starting till end . end up , do it with own self working . ntaa btol ntaa tidak . gy mampos . manage to ask mira for the calculator for the last 5 mins . only eyhh . bleargh . good luck eyhh allissa , fail urhh fail . mt was easy . many slept after one hour and have 30 mins more to go . ohkayh . mira told me every single thing between her and *insert name* .

To who it may concern ;

im not satisfied with you . yes you . im not . eventhough is not my problem , i still care for her ohkayh . dont you think that you can easily be let off just like that eyhh . tkk dapat urhh eyhh . you did that to my friend and just give that KONEK reason of yours ? who the hell is gonna believe you ? trust me . no one will . hah . you cant escape from reality , sucker .
how i wish that i could kill you .

2009-05-11T06:23:00.000-07:00

Allissa , Udy and Lala semuerr darhh mcm biase . pheeew . ohkayh . met udy just now . slackk from 1230 to 630 . some things that i should not mention here . ohkayh , fetch apple at rumah nyayi . and he sent to bus stop till bus came . and dhe kasih satu batang . happy urhh abeyh ? hhaha . mepek . and , tngahh majok gyler babi dgn dhe sekarang . pfftt . reach home . chat with mirawr bby and farhan . mirawr told me something that made me really pissed off .

To Faris ;

ergh . aku geram dgn kao gyler babi . fucker . kao pegy mati laa . aku tkk kesah . im soo goonaa confront you in front of my face . reason kao eyhh , BULLSHIT ! tkmoo nkk mepek urhh siols . kao darhh buat gtu pat kawan aku , beyhh senang senang perhh nk lepasknn ? pikir dhe pompan murahan perhh yg kao bleyhh amek beyh buang gtu mcm . ehh , tkk dapat ahh siaaa . kao jantan keparat larhh cibai . fcukkkkkk you !

2009-05-10T04:52:00.000-07:00

glad that you and hym are getting better . can i manage to ignore hym ? haishh . ive kept thinking about it since yesterday night and cried over and over again . when he message , call . i just cant ignore hym . but instead reply and answering his message and call . haishh . i really dnt know what to do . i just wish that things will get better and get back to its normal way .

labels i hope so

2009-05-09T06:44:00.000-07:00

im sorry Lala . im really really sorry if i am the third party of you both and udy's friendship . you wanna know why he have been ignoring you now a days . asked yourself . he just wanna the old you . likee you use too . he told me like every single thing about you . now , you really wanna the old udy back , right ? so do he . im willing to help you . but , u just refuse . The way you chat with me just now , is likee im really at fault . i cried just now . you told me to tell udy that your friendship with hym ends today and the conversation that we had . i told hym . were on the phone , and he explained everything to me that im not at fault . i cried again . no matter how hard he tried to make me not feel guilty , it doesnt even make me calm down . im starting to ignore hym . i know that im at fault . but , haishh . i dont know what to do anymore . but , i will help you with udy's friendship . i dont care . whatever it takes , you both must be bestfriends like you both use too back again . again , im really really sorry )':

labels im sorry bby . im gonna ignore you )':

2009-05-08T08:04:00.000-07:00

today was maths paper and history paper . standard urh . maths , leave banyak perhh blank . history , section B kene tulis likee one whole page . tapy , setakat tulis 3 , 4 line ajerr . rabakk urhh rabakk . head to tamp inter . met alep and mom . ate at food culture . went to tamp 1 . bought elmo and cookie monster keychain yang letak pat hp peyhh . elmo untok akuu . cookie monster untok si diaa . si diaa jugak yg nkk mahh . then , tungu apple larhh pulak . teros dhe nk belyk keychain elmo tu urhh . tros i say , "tkde urhh tkde . tkk bleyh . jgn kepo urhh " evil larhh knn . tros dhe ponn nk belyk cookie monster , i say the same thing to her . stop it siaa allissa . at last , dhe tkk belyk paper lorhh . yeayness . dhe tkk belyk elmo atao cookie monster . teehee :D baru semalam jerr jumper si diaa . beyh nari tkk jumper , i miss hym like hell . ishkk . okayh , fine . terbongkar semue rahsia antara aku dgn si diaa . budak 248 darhh kecoh kecoh , kacaw kacaw aku dgn dhe . tapy , kyte darhh sepakat buat bodoh ajerr eyhh . pat depan budakbudak 248 step tkk penahh berbual gtu . tapy , pat belakang .. laen cyter urhh . heh . kayh , bye .

ydu ssim i

2009-05-07T06:29:00.000-07:00

Today , someone made me really pissed off . fcukk you . he know , i know . u dont know . urhh , right . tkk perlu larhh nkk buat aku cmm gtu . erghh . da gini gtu . beyh , at last aperhh aku find out ? werld jeq banyak eyhh kao . darhh larhh . aku trust knn kao , tapi nii yg aku dapat ? haishh )':

labels i really love you baby . crying )':

EDIT ;

is 1205 and im still awake . and im crying again and again . haishh )': i only eat cheese fries for yesterday after exam . i have no appetite to eat when i reach home . i kept thinking about si diaa . only iffah knew about it . thanks iffah for cheering me up . appreciate it lots dear . now , im alone . i have no one to share stories to and express my feelings to . im starting to miss Wie . come back fast baby . im suree this home will be alive again with your crazyness . im feeling down . i may be smilling but .. haishh .im falling sick . im weak . i just need someone to be by my side )':

labels i really love you baby . crying )':

2009-05-06T06:45:00.000-07:00

okayh , fcuk those exams . never study . good girl eyhh ? .__. fail urhh fail . eng compo and letter writting , eng hancor . same goes to compre and summary . mt listening compre , okayh urhh .
social studies , tkk belajar . cikgu kasih 2 to 3 foolscap . tapi , tulis case 2 to 3 lines ajer . physics , banyak ques cmm sial . leave blank banyak . bsok , pure lit . tkk bace buku tuu pon .
RABAK perr allissa . stand by nxt year turon n.a jerr larhh eyh .

to Wie ,
i hopee you will change to a better person eyhh . ILY .

labels fallen for you .

2009-04-29T04:28:00.000-07:00

alot of things happen today . at history lesson , some people kentot . nyahaha . semue orang pikir aku . not me eyhh people . sumpah , bukan aku . sapesape pat history lesson tuu tahu larhh betape kuatnyerr bunyi kentot itu yerr . then , maths lesson . yan say to me "kao kentot eyhh tadi pat history class??" then i say uhh , "tkk siols . bukan aku siaa . *insertname* yg kentot siaa" then yan and azan biken lagu kentot kentot pehh . tros , early recess for f&n student only eyhh . then semue da start kacau *insertname* . f&n tros english and lit . zhuan mei , is your luck babe . if lorraine never give the hp to me , how ? that FRAT would take it away . thanks to me eyhh (: and aku kacau kacau *insertname* yg dhe kentot tuu . fed up perr girl ?! haha . hehe . mother tongue sucks . then , cari ms loh nan mdm ang mcm siak nk dapat school uni after school . while hanis and mirawr tunggu pat toilet . at last , tkk dapat . besok jerr larhh ehh . naek mrt . da sampai , ade perang besar punyerr . budak2 gadoh . standard uhh . kejar sini kejar sane . lol . bought bubble tea . tros , byler ngah jalan pat bawah blok knn , ade cmm nyonya nii pekik pekik mcm orang gyler . siakk jer . reach home , mandi . tros kol udy . dhe yg suroh . beyh , tkk sampai bape minit , papa ku balek sroh goreng ayam . soo , letak goreng goreng lorhh . otp dengan udy balek for 2 jam . then , blablabla .. sekarang maen com . chat with farhan(: , fahfah toot(: , mirul (: . agaknyer tuu jerr uhh . malam nk kol udy lagii lurhh . kayh , bye .

2009-04-26T07:32:00.000-07:00

kaki gerek♥

this post have nothing to do with el setanos familia .

fcukk that shit ! cibai . dngr dngr nii semue salah aku pehh ?! kiwakk . stop it larhh sia . ehh , dhe yg bilang aku bende tuu semue pahh . and in the first place why the hell must he make up those stories that made me believe and have the heart to help hym ?! not my fault urhh ehh . ehh , oiii . im just being concern as he is my friend larhh ehh . not more ! ehh , aku pon ade aku pehh uhh . beyh , dngr dngr ehh aku pehh yg print ?! aku pehh ?! sejak byler aku jumper dorangg tu semue lagi ?! BULLSHIT ! i feel like smacking ur face larhh siols . FCUK YOU !

2009-04-24T21:51:00.000-07:00

booooooooo ! hello . soo , went for nkf after school with mirawr , kelvin , chan qiang , zhong heng , kc , cassandra , siow chen and zahara . about the nkf tingy , there's change . yeaynesss . at nkf there , me and mirawr laugh alot . and chan qiang talk likeee wat siaa , he talk about our bestest form teacher ever that we had *sarcastic* . pfftt . then , head back to school . met hazim and faris . faris sent and waited for mirawr to bus 81 . and hazim sent and waited for me to bus 72 . sooo , yeaa . and hazim . you , fcukking irritating eyhh . smack you . kayh , bye .

2009-04-23T07:24:00.000-07:00

sepet ft loloq . i lovee this kiddo . loloq larhh knn .
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=FiNUkDnDMFA&feature=related
see this mann . this little kiddo cute gyler babii . he can do breakdance . heh .
okayh , bye .

2009-04-22T07:24:00.000-07:00

fcukk . my life is getting worst . and , i hate it alottt . i feel likee dying . BANG . stop it larh allissa . many things happen now adays . and it sucks to the core . but , thanks to 248(hgg) kaki gerek . they make me smile whenever i feel down . sumpah , aku sayannggg sama dorangg okayh .

kaki gerek ; udy . alep . kak aziah . zali . abg faizal . abg afee . firdaus . wie . bear . alim . taufiq . cepet . wieya . eka . mok . awul . anddd moreeee .

they rock my ass . i lovee themmmm very very muchhh . i feel more comfortable with them as they understand me . they will always be there klw salah satu ade problem . abg afeee (!) no 1 gyler pehh gylerrr .

ohhhhh i hate that bitch . fcukk your ass sucker .

2009-04-17T07:19:00.000-07:00

http://singaporeseen.stomp.com.sg/singaporeseen/viewContent.jsp?id=64592

see this video and i swear you feel likee killing the maid . a maid abusing a two yead old kid .

soo , just now after school stay back for ncc for the ord nite 09' . end up 12 only turn up . then , they play skipping with nidia and eleanor . i sit aside cause having a headache . head home at 430 . bath and slept till 830 . wie is not back home yet . she reach home at 900 . and that pompan ehh banyak stories larhh . so , now blogging .

that picture up there was taken the day after i was berubat at my nyayi's house . when i took the picture , that thing appear . hell yeah .

2009-04-16T07:51:00.000-07:00

my father sucks . u pervert . no need to look at my boops likee that larhh okayh . da steam kodok beyh kocok sendiri . pikir aku tak tahu perr ? stoopid father . i told mama , and mama was like mungkin dhe tkk sengaje ker blablabla . ehh , walaupon mama side knn papa ehh . kakak tkk takot uhh . BLUEQ ! kakak bleyh report uhh siols . first , tngok tngok . lpas nii , ape ? molest ? jangan sampai aku dngr daripada adq-adq yang kao buat mcm gtu pat dorang suaa . u gonna get it if u do it . aku tk leyh terime yang kao tngok pat aku pehh tu gtu mcm . fcukk you .

2009-04-15T07:41:00.000-07:00

nii gambar sungguh tkk perlu eyhh . manymany homeworks now a days . fcukk . i didnt have enough sleep . and now , my eyes are getting sepet-ter . whatever larhh allissa . but must stay awake at night just to do tones and tones of homeworks that are given by teachers . errr , im sleepy . i must finish up with my homework or i will get nag from naggy teachers . okayh , eng sucks . bye .

labels fcukk that shit .

2009-04-13T07:41:00.001-07:00

slack with kentolans bachins after sp . wie , iffah , uzair , mamad and zul was there already when i reach sunplaza park . fuuuhhhh , high uhh byler asap winner . and , was not really in a good mood just now . cry )': only god knows why . haishhh .

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2009-04-11T08:06:00.000-07:00

u see that white bracelet on my right hand ? that's the thing that i must use from now . wie also eyhh . lol . my hand are itchy wearing that bracelet . and the bracelet colour change to likee darker a lil nampak hitam hitam likee only for one day ? i asked nyayi why does the colour change . she say , "bende tuu da tkk kacau kao knn?" i shook my head . she say , "pakai ajerr bende nii." i was likee ohkayhhh . soo , yea . just now settle hal with adawieya . till iffah and wie naek darah . serious mintak kene tampar si pompan tuu (referring to adawieya) lazy to elaborate ehh . ohh , i miss kentolans bachins 100409 mann . ergh . bye .

2009-04-10T05:57:00.000-07:00

went out with kentolans bachin which is , wie , iffah , uzair , mamad and zul . i went jln jln with long , iraa , ithnin and diniy at the first place . after that , bru tag along dengan kentolans bachin . we went to park sing sing sing . mamad play the guitar . andd is likee very very sweet eyhh . the three boys sang first for the first line . then , we three girls continue the next line . soo , continue till end . and we sing alot of songs . lol . okayh . after that , we singgah skejap tamp 1 . skejap jerr eyhh . then , mamad and zul bring us too sunplaza park . act , kyte tige pompan tkk tahu uhh drgg nk gy situ . then , check check daa dkat situ . soo , i was likee confirm wie kene pehh . sbb , wie pehh badan dalam mmg ade tht thing aperr and tht place mmg keras . soo , yeaa . we sit at the pondok . and then , start larhh wie pehh process . she smile smile , buat muke sedih larhh tu larhh . then uzair do what he can do uhh . sampai panggil kawan satu dhe nii yg mmg handal psl ni semue . and i saw alot of white thing around there . alot likee i never seen before . then i kept quite . and the thing is calling me everytime to go to them . i sit down , and cry , cover my face . uzair stand infront of me , and dhe force bukak my tgn dari my muke . dhe ckp tngok dkat dhe , eye contact uhh tu . so i look . and , dhe bace watever thing . and he pull me , diri . dhe ckp , klw i was scared at tht point of time , pelok dhe . so i hug hym as tight as possible . and the thing is also at behind hym at the same tym uhh . and he pull me again and ckp dudok sebelah mamad , so i sit . and zul dhe ckp to me , kao ikot aku kluar dari sini . so i follow . and then , i dnt know wat happen . is likee im not myself animore . till i sedar knn diri . me and cuz go to my nyayi's house took a cab with uzair . iffah told wat happen to my mom . and obviously it is pass to my nyayi and mak long . then , me and wie kene pakai satu bende mcm gelang pat tgn warna putih beyh kat dlm ade lada hitam and was tie to our legan . soo , im wearing it now . and tkk tahu brape lame nk kene pakai bende nii . and , mak long sembuh sembuh this air da bace bace to me . basah oii . nyayi go and bace bace also and likee tekan my kepale with lada hitam . soo end .

2009-04-09T05:57:00.000-07:00

im crying )': haishh . chatting with hym . heyy you . yes , you . isnt it obvious ? is reallyreally obvious . dnt you think so ? ive heard alot from various people about you . info ketat . ergh . and wait till your bdae ? 2204 . ohh , by the time i will be wishing you happy birthday and saying last long to you with her . i just dont know why im crying bacause of you . and i swear that you are a sweet talker , mother fucker .

labels hurt again )':

2009-04-08T05:57:00.000-07:00

today mirawr never come and im missing meyra alot already . and i cried during f&n lesson . hakim , hanis , yan and azan would know why . errrrghhhh . hakim comfort me the most and u are the best hakim . luckily he told me . thanks to you . and i want to find the truth . met alep after school . he told me everything about this hym . thanks alep . im freaking mad at this hym . now still . you are a liar . u know tht ? you told mira different things and i find out different things . baek perr boi ? is hard for me to breathe now , cause im freaking mad at you . i just wanna take something heavy and throw at your face . fcukk you . now , i just want to forget about you . maybe its easy , maybe is not . i just wanna smack you . erghhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh ! go fcukk yourself uhhh cibai !

2009-04-07T05:57:00.000-07:00

today wet to school with mirawr . no sp . after school , have ncc spring cleaning , the room . fuuhhhhhh ! i swear is super kecoh . after all the cleaning till 6+ . pack all the stuff . and something happen outside the girl guides room just beside our ncc room . "tht thing" kasih warning urhh tuu . tapi , kyte tkk kacau dhe , buat ape nk takot knknkn . then took 291 with zarifah , tell stories . me head home . reach home , no one was at home . so , me alone . and mom was backk at about 8 . and told me wie fainted again at school and was brought to nyayi's house . wie , get well soon eyhh . *pray hard * soo now blogging . kayhh bye .

labels kao irritating nkk mampos jablai .

2009-04-06T23:26:00.000-07:00

i miss this kiddo . lol . today school as usual . 3e change class with 4b . fcukk ! knape class si dhe seyhh ._. ergh . have pe in the morning . 2.4km run . ehh , my timing jauh beza siols . last week is 15++ . nari , 17 ++ . slackk bnyk horr . during mt lesson . do group work . me , mirawr , zulhairi and helmi . helmi bukak kotak rokok tuu . bau cket pehh kuat , gundang garam . sebatang uhh . *muke takk tahu malu* mirawr make fun of cikgu huda . i laugh likee hell . and have stomach cramp because of menses . stoopid . bad mood pon ade jugak uhh . after sp , went to bubble tea with hanis and mirawr after head to tamp inter . take 72 went to hgg . slack with bear , alep , black , firdaus , udi , wie , jali , hanafi , alim . i think thts all uhh . they all play with the dead cockroaches . eeewww . and they throw to each other somemore . disgusting bodoh . smack muke satusatu . cheyy :D explained to bear the message tht i sent to alim . so tht bear cn explain to alim . alim tkk faham . cause belajar sampai p4 . soo , yeaa . after tht took 62 with wie , double deck . sit on top nyerr uhh . kat belakang , ade stokin , seluar andd bendena (?) andd ade cmm white discharge nan org baru spit semue . me and wieee , tros mukee eeeeewww siols . seriously disgusting . kiwakk . orgg buat dalam bus perr ? lol . reach home , bath . now currently chatting with azam and sufian .

to sufian ;

i will support you mann . cheer up eyhh . show her how muchh you love her . good luck :D

to azam ;

he suckssssss alot to the bawah . and yeaa . no moree days left eyhh .

labels disgusting bodoh .

2009-04-04T23:26:00.000-07:00

130109 - 230309 ♥

I miss you when something really good happens , because you're the one I want to share it with .
I miss you when something is troubling me , because you're the one who understands me so well .
I miss you when I laugh and cry , because I know that you are the one that makes my laughter grow , and my tears disappear .
I miss you all the time , but I miss you the most when I lay awake at night , and think of all the wonderful times that we spent with each other for those were some of the best and most memorable times of my life .
But now I realize that .
Having a guy dump you and say "We can still be friends"
Is like having your mom say "Your dog died but you can still keep it"
If you knew how badly you hurt my heart and how whenever I see you I just want to break down and cry .
Someone that is so "special" for me , till that i has to feel this unbearable pain . Even worse , you're the person causing it .
I just say to myself that , u sucks , u sucks , u sucks , u sucks , u sucks a lot and a lot of times then anyone else do . Cause , u sucks to the bawah .
Now thanks to you . I'm scared to fall in love again . And you are a stranger for me , forever .
First of all , you broke my heart when I expected you to be the last one to do it .
It's sad because all along I thought you knew me better than everyone else .
But now I am starting to wonder if you even knew me at all .
I was finally getting over you and actually believing I didn't need you .
Now you walk away and smiled at me and ruined it all .

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2009-04-02T06:40:00.000-07:00

this is yesterday's picture.

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2009-04-01T06:57:00.000-07:00

lessons was boring . after school , have fun time with hanis , mirawwr , fazirah , syahirunnisa , maisarah and moreee . me and mirawwr camwhore and take candid pictures that is our friends pictures . alott till mirawr batt flat and credits to her . and we laugh alot likeee very alot from the other days that we laugh before . all the pictures with mirawr . will be putting the pictures soon . so people , if your picture is there , you'r lucky :D
conference with maisarah about her recently life . mirawr and me listen to her stories and all . then mirawr advice her and at the same time make jokes . maisarah , aim for sausage not ququ olriteee . no matter what , you have us :D
after that , head back home . take bus 8 with mirawr and eqa . have a nice conversation with both of these kiddos . eqa ! u know , i know . andd i dnt know who know . and ohh , u read that what he gave right . im suree that ________________ . ahhh . tuu larhh .
they alighted at afghan . and i alighted at tampines inter . reach aljunied station and hear songs while walking . walking under the void deck and it is always quite . so , use too it . and "duka dalam rindu" song were played . feel down cause think about hym . reach home , then went straight to bedroom . wie was praying . i cried . she comfort me . awwwww . then , bath . sooo , yeaaa . time is running faster .

It's only after you are gone and do you realize how much i miss you .
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2009-03-31T06:23:00.000-07:00

go school with hanis , mirawr , wiwi , torres and alep . sports day today . took part in 8x100 relay with others . my class won 3rd place . lol . and , eqa cry just now . sad for her . after that , ncc . incharge of the decoration tingy eyhh .

If I could give you one thing in life , I would give you the ability to see yourself through my eyes , only then would you realize how special you are to me .

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2009-03-30T01:38:00.000-07:00

wie , please recover soon okayhh dear . i hope that thing will get out from your body a.s.a.p . *pray hard*

If I could be any part of you , I’d be your tears . To be conceived in your heart , born in your eyes , live on your cheeks , and die on your lips .

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2009-03-29T01:38:00.000-07:00

I'm trying really hard not to cry over you because every tear is just one more reminder that I don't know how to let you go .

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2009-03-27T07:15:00.000-07:00

today went out with hanis , mirawrr , torres and alep . have fun eyhh . and the news is spread . ohh , fcukk .

Meeting you was fate , becoming your friend was a choice , but falling in love with you was beyond my control .

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2009-03-26T02:49:00.000-07:00

Have you ever wondered which hurts the most ? Saying something and wishing you had not , or saying nothing , and wishing you had ?

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2009-03-25T06:18:00.001-07:00

If you love somebody , let them go .

If they return , they were always yours .

If they dont , they never were .

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2009-03-24T07:58:00.000-07:00

every minute past , i kept thinking about you . haishh . why is it soo hard to forget about you ? why ? eventhough you are succha pain in the ass . i still have the feelings for you and ily .

2009-03-23T05:38:00.000-07:00

first day of school and its a nightmare . this morning run 2.4km around the forest there . my timing is , 16min 55sec . slow siols . andd when i finished the run , my leg feel very pain . so i sat down when i reach the basketball court there and open my shoes and socks . wanna know wat ? i have 6 blisters at my feet . likee wtf . 3 from the left foot and 3 from the other . from my left side , one of the blister is at the thumb there , another one bawah tapak kaki , another one at the last finger yg paling kecik situ uhh . and is the same place/ position tht the blister is at my right feet . and i find it weird . heh . mepek . kayhh i walk bare footed to my class for history lesson . i wanna wear the shoes but is pain . i was bare footed till recess time and asked g.o whether they have slipper cause of my leg is blablabla . they dont . so , i was force to use the shoe then . i walk likee i was just recover from being handicapped . heh . after for quite some time , i get to use with it and i bare with the pain . heh . soo , yeaa . and ohh , i saw wiwi today and he smiled :D

0148 hours , 230309 .
it have ended .

yesterday , at around 2330 hours . he message and said that he wanna call me . i told him tht wie is using the phone . he says , "setengah jam jer perrr . tkkn tk bleyh ." i say to wie , "ehh wie . aim nk kol aku urhh ." she says , "qao bilang dhe yg aqu nga pakai telefon" i told aim . he says , "ckp nan dhe ehh . setengah jam jerr tao . tk lame ." i told wie what aim told me . she says , "qao bilang dhe eyhh yg besok aku tkder tao . aku gy camping ." i tld hym . he says , "ehh gy camping . balek perr . bukannyer tkk . mcm boy dhe nk lari gtu." beyh wie says blablabla ... and at last , aim message wie hymself and asked and they both fought . i was likee , sial urhh . pasal telefon pon nk gado perr siaa ? immature siols korangg . binget siaa . after tht , i just say to wie , "ehh wie . kao kasih aku kol dhe sudaa . kasih dhe tutop mulot . binget siaa ." i called and he was complaining and tkk puas hati nan wie blablablaa . i said to hym , "b , 10 min jerr eyhh . i nk biken hw uhh ." he didnt ans that question . andd , he talk about the past boud me , hym , yan and wie . beyh ngaa bobalbobal , alehaleh si wie ckp , "ehh , da time uhh ." bustered bdw kao wie . i tld hym , tros tunjok attitude siaaa . cibai . veryvery binget .
sooooooo this is wat happen when we message andd is veryvery longg .
ME : Apeape jawapan u , u mcm tunjok attitude pat i . so , klw semue nk tunjok attitude eyhh , lebih baek tkyaa kol . asl salah satu tkk bleyh mengalah urhh ? u tahu knn cume satu orgg bleyh kol at one time . abeyh knape mcm gini ? satusatu buat perangai . wie nyer perangai nan u lagyk . mcm budakbudak uhh .
HYM : u , dulu mmg i break nan u psl wie . wad she had done . i tk uke . teros trng , i ckp mase i patch i tkd hat pat u sikit pon . psl i kesian pat u wanting me bck i patch bck . u hav change . n i dun lyke it . tros terang . kayh u ckp jgn kol kn , fine uh . kte tkya ctct lagi uhh ehh .
ME : lets settle this in a good way then . ive change ? yeaaa , i know . but ive change cause is for my own sake . you know why ? cause my trust for you is fading away when u tld me your real feeling before this . (not previous msgg) . and i knew that this is gnna happen again and we wouldnt last . im not asking for sympathy from u eyhh . i just want a sincere love , not more . im not desperate to have you in my life eyhh . and ohh , thanks for being honest btw .

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there still moreeeeeeeeee . is damn long eyhh .
soo , yeaaa .
heyyyy , are you stupid ? cant you make your best decision for you , your ownself ? cant you ? why must you make a decision that really hurts other people's feelings ? hah . your suchha bird brain riteee . agreee with me .
likeeee wat u say , "tros trg i ckp mase i patch nan u i sikit pon tkd hati pat u sikit pon ." but , if wat u say is soooosoooooo true , then why must you say , " ilysm bby .. too much tht everidae everi night i wanna be beside u .. dnt ever leave me . coz , i wnt ." the other night when u message me . i save tht message okayhh .
people , read that !! SWEET TALKER , MOTHER FUCKER .
ouhhhh , i get it now . this is just a sentence right ? A SENTENCE . wat are u trying to do huh ? toying with my heart ? this is why i dnt trust you in the first place . do u see wats your reaction ? do you ? i know wat type of guy are you . andd , im not a girl tht is soooosooooo desperate to have you in my life eyhh . read tht !
i still remember you force me to ** with you . eyhhhhh , plsss larhhh ! if i say , i dnt want . thats mean , i dnt . get it sucker ? andd yaaa , im not tht cheapcheap girl tht men asked service for . if u wanna tht type , then go find one nearby my house . there's lots here . LONTEHLONTEH !
now i realise , your words , sentences are all fake . veryvery fake indeed . i just wanna take a banana and smash it onto your face . im not your rag doll larhh eyhh . you take it when you need it , but you throw it when you think i am a waste time to you . i just wish that i can flick you just likee that and you regret doing it to me . but , i think u wnt .
i think tht is better if we act likee a stranger forever <3>

TO APIT ;
awwww , i dnt know . i cant make up my mind . when you asked for me patch just now afternoon , i was stoned . i dnt want to get hurt no more . haishhh .

this concern to SUFIYAN .
i really treasure our relationship and u as my jiwe . bt , if your not sincere to be my , wie and iffah's friend animoreee . then , do stop being a hypocrite and a backstabber . i know everything . and now , i know who the real you . stop pretending eyhh .

labels ;
Aku harus terima walaupun terluka . Ternyata hatiku benar , cintamu hanya sekadar untuk sementara .

2009-03-19T22:34:00.000-07:00

yesterday was bored in the morning and afternoon . but at night , went out with this twin and , cik aim(wie'e dad) and mak long(wie's mom) . we went to eat at changi there . we have nasi ayam penyet . cik aim make jokes that we laugh our ass out . seriously funny eyhh . he act like a mr bean with his big round tummy and walk likee one . hehs . after that we went to the beach . cik aim and mak long were sitting with alep and conference with him . while me and wie were standing by the side near the waterwater there . andd , we saw this white ting lying at the sand . it was pure dark andd we can only see likee a small , short tail . and its two legs and the body . but , the head is likee damn small and the figure is white . but it seems likee is doesnt have a head . me and wie , started "eeeeeeeeeeee-ing" we took that picture have the flash so have clearer view of that animal and show it to cik aim and mak long . we all went to see it again . and cik aim say it is a dog . a dog without a head ? he say it may be likee quite a long time that dog have been there , dead . soo , is rotten and the head is gone . lols .the picture is up there . so , we sit back at the place . and , cik aim , mak long started to conference with me about my family and siblings . he serious andd funny . when he says something , he will always give an example using people that we knew andd make fun of them . i laughed at the same time . but , when a few minute have past , i felt erghh . i held back my tears . but , i cant hold it any longer . and tears started to roll down at my cheeks . erghh . fcukk . they told about my father . andd , checkcheck . my father's name/picture appeared at the newpaper that one day about money and have this big problem . i was not told what completely is it about . okayhh , so yeaa . at 2330 hours , we head back home . all the way in the car , we hear jiwang songs from saleem all that . i hear that song and i think about that someone , i miss hym so muchh . in the car , cik aim and mak long says and asked whether we want to sleep at kak wati's house cause no body is there for that night . at first they agree . but , for me i dont . soo , is canceled . reach the place and went out from the car . cik aim asked me "cha , knape kao tknk tido rumah kak wati ?" i just do a signal , idk . he says , "malu ehh ? tkd pape lahh ." i just kept quite and salam hym . since i enter the teenage life , this is the first time i get a hug from a person called dad . i wanna cry but i must be strong . when he hug me he says , "Da laa cha . jangan pikir pikir kann sangat ." how nice is he . i salam mak long . we hug too . he gave me and alep , $2 each . soo , yea .

at that night , me and aim were having this problem . but , i was having migrane and it was 0100 ++ already . i told hym , we settle this today then . and , it have been solve , i think . not completely . soo , yea . there is soo many homework that need to be done .

;maths worksheet

;2 chemistry worksheet

;home econ homework

;english homework

-free writing (compo)

-newspaper reflection

-vocabulary worksheet

;pure literature

-complete reading book, heartland

-write a 50 to 80 word summary for every chapter in the literature journal

choose 3 events/moments/chapters (one from each parts of the story, ie days, months, years) which you find important and write your response to them, explaining your reasons. complete this in foolscap paper.

-this work will be graded

i havent even touch on any single one of my homework . andd , school is starting in two days time . soo fast eyhh . gonna die soon .

labels imysm baby.

2009-03-18T08:48:00.000-07:00

hello earthlings . long time no update eyhh . lazy urhh . monday andd tuesday have sea module specialist course . confident can pass the eye splice , back splice andd bend and hitches but not the paper eyhh . there will be the land specialist course during the june holiday. diedie. tikamtikam . today , meet aim , wan and hazimah . wan larii rumah . hazimah say to her mom dhe ade camp . checkcheck , camp pat tepi pantai perr . heh . went home andd wie just came back . went to mapherson , atok house with wie and alep . send barangbarang untok apple . leceh eyhh . then , smth extremely funny happen byler nga otw jalan balek . paiseyhh oii . reach hme . nw , blogging . ohh yaa , that picture up there was taken just now , at atok house . andd , is just a finger andd it means nothing olriteee .

im sorry dear . ive been lying to you . i really didnt mean it . but , i must too . haishh . im sorry . andd , i think im gonna let u go again . sorry dear .

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♥cause, i care.

2009-03-14T19:47:00.000-07:00

woke up at 0900 . went to sarap with mom , dad and apple . after that , i head home alone . mom sent apple to religious class andd dad went somewhere . mendaq . online . chatted with
♥hanis and ♥miraww . planned to go to army shop actually . but , my skirt okayhh . so , no need . hanis , cant . soo , yea . miraww go alone . sorry . then , sleep till 4 or 5 . watch this movie , the pacifier . i findd this movie , gerek . lols . now , blogging . andd , chatting with aza andd aza told me that , boudd the tomorrw tingy . 70% ill go okayhh .

♥eqa ! aww , i know how muchh u miss hym . okayhh fine . ive been saying this to you likee alot of times . but , i really do know how you feel . cos , ive been in your situation before . it really takes a longg time for the feeling to fade away . remember you told me this before ? i did take your advice , andd it do really fade away . but , is just about time . haishh . i believe that he still care for you . andd , i know that you'r a strong girl . no matter what , me andd your friends are still there for you . if you have any problems andd you feel down , do not hesitate to nudge me olritee . i will be your listening ear((: cheer up dear :D ily.

♥iraaaa ! dnt cry dear . ive been repeating this sentence to ♥eqa , andd it apply to you okayhh . i know that ur a strong girl likee ♥eqa . andd , it takes time for that feeling to fade away kayhh . no matter what , me andd your friends are still there for you . if you have any problems andd you feel down , do not hesitate to nudge me olriee . will be your listening ear((: cheer up dear:D ily.

that picture up there . was taken this morning when i was at home alone . shiokk sendiri eyhh . lols . okayhh , i miss my moreee brown-ed hair . i wanna dye ! heh . okayhh , ive nothing muchh to say .

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♥eqa ! and ♥iraaa ! if you read this post , ill be glad:D just one day , andd ill already miss hym . he is soo hawt , that ive melted .

2009-03-13T05:08:00.000-07:00

friday (!) lols . today , go to school as usual urhh . when i alight from the bus , andd was on the way to my classroom . i went to eqa , andd asked her , whether she's okayhh or not . she seems to be sad . very . she cried , when i asked her that . sorry eqa if ive made you cry . haishhh .. first 4 period is f&n . boringgg . researchresearchresearch . after that , is mother tongue . andd , last two period is area cleaning andd report slip tingy . me and meyra were going back to class from the toilet , when wiwi is outside his class standing one side . andd , when me and meyra were walking infront of this particular guy , fadhli i think . he said , "wiwi wiwi!" lols . i didnt turn around . meyra says that he is calling me . i turn . andd , this guy pointing to me , and said , "ehh , wiwi dhe suke kao" at the same he was looking at wiwi . i was likeee , FCUKK . paiseyhhh siols . erghh . after school , when under the void deck with hanis andd mirawrr . head to hougang . went to see aim , wan , hazimah and indra (?) . super bowl is the place where we head too . aim asked me for patch funny siols . long story eyhh . accept or not urhh ? *confuse* he sent me home after that . wie , is going to malaysia back . probably , back by next week (?) alep , having camping till mon . haiyoo . k lurhh , im damn tired right now . bye .

ps i must make the right decision .

aku mmg suke dhe , beyh asl ?

2009-03-12T06:47:00.000-07:00

mom doesnt want to talk to me . me and my mom do our own stuff . doesnt talk to each other for 2 days . both of us were likee strangers . i really hope we are likee before .

to mom ;

as u know wat happen , the last two days by my teacher , yesterday . im really sorry for wat ive done . i dare to say it to you through message , but not infront of you . i am ashame of myself . i know that , is stupid of me , regretting it now , cause things have happen . and it cant be change . i knew that , i show a bad example to wie , alep and especially apple . but , there is really no use regretting it now . i know your hurt and dissapointed of me as i am the eldest . i know that you want me to show them a good example . and , i want the best for them too . i dont want them to follow my footsteps being dishonest and started lying bit by bit towards others , especially you . ill promise that this is the first and the last . i just hope that my promises that ive make , i really mean it . but , wat im trying to say is , im really sorry . eventhough your not my real mom and i am a adopted child for you , no matter wat , i still love you , mom .

haishhh .

this question always play in my mind .

Can i find my only one , real own blood , big brother ? can i ?

14 years , since the day ive born we have been separated and i only seen you once in my lyf . you are given to another family . andd , i was given to the other , that i am living now with . eventhough , our real mom and dad have their own life now that dad have his new own family andd mom , is in jail . i think that , our relationship as siblings must carry on . but , its hard for me . i dnt know where are you now . my mom(Adopt) says , your finding me . but , you just dont have my number . but , when mom called you , it cant get through . when she called grandma , it also can get through . haishh . you will always appear in my mind andd even dream when im sleeping or day dreaming . i just hope that we both , 2 of us siblings , will meet one day . i hope soo . ill pray for it . im looking forward that both of us , will get along well one day . im saying this , cause i care . i care you as my brother eventhough , i only seen you once . i wanna feel how does it feel like being the youngest . as im being the eldest all this while out of 4 siblings in this family . i just hope that you will enter in my lifee one day . ily , brother .

D I M P L E S I B L I N G S .

2009-03-08T21:48:00.000-07:00

cause , i care.

cause a younger sister follows what her elder sister do . get it ?

this younger brother of mine is getting wild .

A L L I S S A , sec 3 (eldest) ; me . is hard to handle and control the situation if your younger sister andd brother doesnt even want to listen to your advice . cause , i did show a bad example . see that middle finger . andd it run in the family . andd im always the one who is to blame if they do something wrong . andd , it sucks .

W I E , sec 2 (second younger sister) ; always on the phone . andd have a lot of problem .

A L E P , sec 1 (younger brother) ; gone wild . andd have no respect for the eldest anymoree .

A P P L E , primary 4 (smallest younger sister) ; have the habit to answer backk if she is to do something .

hellohello (!)

as you can see , this is how many siblings i have andd tngok satusatu , semue decent larhh knn . we have really change . i admit , ive change . see each one of my siblings face ;

we , four of us , create alot of problems . really .

me , idk . my studies is reallyreally getting worst . err , i dont care about my life animoreee . why eyhh ? *otakblank* bleargh .

wie ; this girl . idk wat to say . but , she do really have alot of problem .

alep ; this boy is getting wild since he enter secondary school life . i understand how andd what you want . cause , i am in your situation too . but , he doesnt have the respect for the eldest . even my parents .

apple ; she likee to answer backk to me and parents .

FRUSTRATED . dnt know wat to do animoreee . haishhh .

let me continue with my post then .

last friday .

speech day rehearsal . im the first aider . furthermre , not participating in the speech day parade . soo , yeaa . takeqaiire of firah as her leg is injured during her morning pe . we both , were in the room , resting . when , one by one started to come in andd report sickk . total , 11 people . terokk sangatsangat . some , even felt likee fainting . then , vomit . soo , yea . head home .

yesterday .

kayaking oii . during kayaking , in the kayak , have muscle cramp . really pain . cannot even get out of the kayak . andd , need the help of the coach to get out of the kayak . wth . jalan lembab weii . after tht , reach school hujan lebat gyler . andd then , went to eat at food culture with zarifah , farah , syazwani , hashimah , fazirah , amalina , suhaila . then , meet mom , wie and alep at tamp mall . buy this long sleeve shirt . two . me andd wie shareshare . then , go hme . at night , meet aim . belajar eyhh . ajar dhe , can die . lol . 11+ bru reach hme . then , sleep .

today .

went to madrasah then kayaking . not feeling well anw . blajaaaa , ngaji . buy donut pat donut empire . YUMMY . pastu balek lorhh . need to go hospital actually . beyhh , tk jadik . tired eyhh .

soo now im blogging urhh. currently , chatting too .

andd , to you . who may it concern .

fcukk up . stop showing your fcukking attitude to me larhh eyhh .

i know your joking . but , plss larhh eyhh .

thats not the right time to joke about idiot .

think before you talk . understand ?

relax allissa . ya latif .

okayhh . tomorrow is schooling . i better stop here then .

gdnyte earthlings .

ps feel relieve when meet hym(:

2009-03-05T06:21:00.000-08:00

today maths ct was difficult, i think. get physics paper bckk. 16/41 of my class failed. i get 8/25. pathetic bodoh. wtf. ergh. then, eng lesson. that beaver make a big fuss because of a small matter. just accept the fact that they want to write, gossip about you. who are you to stop them? you are just our form teacher olritee. not more than tht. but, i dnt think we as a class treat you as our form teacher. bleargh. then, she lecture, talktalktalk for the whole eng lesson. she got say, if your not interested, what for you come to school? eyhh, we are suppose to come to school to study not to see your face fcuk-tard. parveen didnt bring her watsoever thing tht she was suppose to bring. tht beaver says, if she(referring to parveen) andd *insertname* was not in this class, your class will be ..... better(i forgot wat she say. but, is a positive thing). erghh. then, i was likee, if you are not our form teacher, our class will be better than ever. after tht, cme. played games using sweets etc. after tt, stay bckk for sports day tingy? the writewrite name uhh. i was in the 8 times 100 relay tingy. after tht, went to hospital. tngok nenek. camwhore. head home. packpackpack for tomorrow ncc. tired urhh seyhh. nyteee.

ps i miss hym .

2009-03-03T21:37:00.000-08:00

heyy yaww people. today is ss common test. otak blank. soo, yeaa. stay bckk pat skola sampai kol 5? then, head to hgg. jumper wie, umar and imran. imran! im gonna revenge urhh. blueqq! heh. ohh, yahh. this picture of this two guy here, is dearest yan and aim. i miss them truckkk and tonnes loads. long time tkk nampak seyhh. jiwekuu kemana kao menghilang urhh? cheyywahh. tomorrow, phys and chem ct. phys DIEDIE. chem, okayhh urhh. insyallah bleyhh buat. end here. SICK.

ps i never saw hym for one whole day.

C R A Z Y A S S ♠

2009-03-02T04:39:00.000-08:00

currently chatting with these two crazy ass. very very long conversation. talk about hawthawtheat guys. heh. actually, the person we have a crush on. W I W I ! awww, he's hawthawtheat. my crushh urhh. heh. A P P L E ! mirawrrr punyerrr. T O R R E S ! hanistarrr punyerr. LOL. today, school as usual. common test on english. FCUKK! otak blank tros siols. fail urhh fail. then, lesson as per usual. assembly. && yaa, one of the springfielders ade accident. dapat tahu, eeqa. luckily nth happen. awww, get well soon yeaa eeqa. *pray hard* today no sp. i mean, this whole week. YEAY! after assembly, went to the toilet with the these two ass. ketawe non stop seyhhh. and me tukar baju camp. sebab, nk gy smewhere knnn. lpastuuu, go with mirawrr to bk, then library. jumper sha. so, talktalktalk. laughlaughlaugh. terjumper, alep(my adq). go hgg. jumper wie. && hujan lebat gylerr siols. terjumper imran pat situ :D miss hym larhh siols. me, wie n alep basah gyler babi and went home. skrgg, ngaa mabok. TOOT!

kayhh, skrgg nth to do. sooo, yea. anddd, gdnyte. gonna be sickk tomorow.

ps no matter what happen, life must go on.

awww, i love wiwi (:

2009-03-01T23:42:00.000-08:00

current song: apit, wan - luahan hati, kemana kau menghilang diri
current mood: missing them

i was browsing my folder when i saw this. 261208. this picture remind me of the past, the first day me and wie meet both of these two guys, aim and yan. me, wie, iffah, alep, imran, umar, isa and wan went to bugis. thats the first ever tym, we went and go out together. and thats the day, went we bump into yan and aim for the first ever time for me and wie. that was suppose to be a fun and enjoying outing for us, spending our time together as jiwe's and friends. but indeed, i remember, thats the day, when there are alot of quarelling among us. isa said something too imran, about me. and made imran, have no mood all the way till we went home. it was a misunderstanding. and, i have too explained it too isa and imran. i explained, and in the end. i hurt isa, and made imran cheer up. im just telling the truth to you, isa. i cant lie to myself. although, u have feelings towards me, and you told imran about it, imran was like blaming it on me tht u have feelings towards me. and is likee, all the incident happen, bacause of me. that time, i didnt have any feelings towards you but to imran. you were hurt, when ive told you everything. i know your hurt. but, ive to be honest. and imran is likee okayhh with it already. but, i feel likee im a bastard. thats the day, when i also get to know that aim and imran also quarrel bacause of a word tht is called to imran by aim. is a misunderstanding again. haishh. the day is full of misunderstanding.
080109, the day when me and imran were together as one. our relationship were going on smoothly, but not for long. when my prepaid was low. we never like contact for days, and u didnt even use your inciative to asked me to call you or watsoever. on the 110109, wie and yan were talking on the phone, there are use to it. then, aim were there with yan. that day is when aim ran out from house cause of something. and i chatted on the phone with yan for a while when wie were in the toilet. out of sudden, there's this similar voice as yan say "hi" and i replied back, "hi" and it was you, aim. you introduce yourself and yeaa. at that point of time, my heartbeat were faster and i dont know why. but, i just ignored and tried to calm down. when, wie came out from the toilet. and i gave her the phone back. and u told wie, to pass the message to me, to called you during night time later. and i have your number, and save it. that night, i mean, morning around 1+ i chatted with you on the phone for around 2 hours. you were with wan at tht point of time. i have a nice conversation with you then. the next day, 120109, is when wie broke up with umar and stead with yan. you and me were chatting on the phone and you asked me to be you ttm. i said yes, as for me, ttm is nothing. i told about me and imran to you, as i trust you as my ttm. on 130109, you message me, and said tht,if i really do love you, let go of imran and remember what imran have done. that day, i really have a hard time thinking about it. you, wie, yan, adawieya and wendy have arrived at hgg and slack at the 9th floor , at the staircase, near the lift. i have no mood and when i step out of the lift at the 9th floor and i saw all of you. but, i ignored. and just went straight to my grandma's house which was at the 9th floor too, and sat outside quietly thinking deeply what am i going to do. then, wie came, and asked why. i burst into tears. she hug me. i was crying badly. haishhh. i told her and she advice me. and tht day, u asked me for stead. and ive made my decision to silent break with imran. and i stead with you. since that day, you have brighten up my life. on the 150109, out of the sudden, imran message me, and asked what am i trying to do with our relationship etc. and i said, i heard from some people boud this girl, name syahirah, from isa andd yea. so, i end my relationship with imran that day. so, me and aim, wie and yan. we'r four, always spent time together after school and also during weekends. aim, u have been a good boyfriend. you sent me home eventhough u know that u have to be home by 6. and when you reach home, u get scolded by your mom. wie asked for break with yan. and they end their relationship on, 010209. since then, me and aim are getting apart. on the 040209, our relationship have end. i cried for one whole night, and wie were there for me. the next day, ive a migrane and im not feeling well, and i didnt go to school. the whole day at hme, i kept thinking about you. haishhh. a few days later, me, you, wie and yan meet at our usual port and wie and yan left me and you, alone under the void deck. and u told and explained everything to me. i cried and u hug me. when i was crying, i was shivering. i felt like fainting. but, i tried to be strong. haishh. wie and yan patch again because of my sake. but, they end their relationship again.
on the 150209, apit asked me for stead. i accept it, idk why. break on the 170209. i asked for it. then, patch again on the 250209, he asked too. and tht tym, kiki asked for wie stead. she accept. so, yeaa. i want to end my relationship with apit yesterday, but.. idk. wie and kiki's relationship have ended yesterday.
now, imran n me have become jiwe's. aim have enter into my life again.

haishh. i still cant forget about aim.
i still have your pictures in my handphone.
i still love hym no matter how much he have hurt me.
its hard to forget about hym.
i really2 miss hym.
i miss the old times when me and aim, wie and yan were together.
i just hope that we can be together likee before.
allissa, wake up larhh. is just a dream okayhh. jangan mimpi larhh ygg krgg nii akan together balek.
haishhhhhh )':

♥ A I M

2009-02-28T23:42:00.000-08:00

ive change my background. && really satisfied with it. purple eyhh. thanks to MIRAWWW! ily bby. hmm, today tkk kluar uhh. very very tired seyhh. sleep, eat, drink, play computer. tu jerr eyhh. currently chatting with miraww, ardilla& wie palabuto. awww. thanks for the concern miraww& ardilla. appreciate it lots. i just order pizza like my father asked too. & it total is, $50. woahh. manymany eyhh. then, now making cookies. lazy to help urhh. hee. && wie palabuto. is salute, not solute chitard.

ps i tried not to think too muchh about it. but, i cant. is hardd for me to forget boudd hym. i tried, but i cant. )':

2009-02-27T05:25:00.000-08:00

today went to school as per normal. today was late. i mean, kluar rumah. i only brought maths tb, pencil case & foolscap only for today. me& apple(my adq) perangai memang budak kecik. tolak tolak each other, sampai eqa cmm tngok free show gtu pat mrt platform. knn eqa knn? hehee. ehhh eqa! aku suker rambot kao. kasih aku leyhh? lol. first period, was f&n. BORING NK MAMPOS! then, mt. test on peribahasa. sucks at it alottt! recess. then, hairin& meyra gado kat stu jugakk. tp, byler my class da nk kene jalan uhh. MEYRA! relax urhh babe. chill. maths lesson. ade test. tkk confident beyhh tk buat. soo, FAILED. gyler siaa lisa. common test nkk dekat pon tkk tahu nk buat. no ncc. means, YEAY-NESS! slackkslackkslackk til 6. then, head home. mintak break nan apit again. patch on 2502 break on 2702. haiyoo lisa. kao nii saketknn hati orgg jerr ehh. i also dont know why urhh mintak dhe break. tp, just have no more feelings towards hym. wat for i lie to myslef ritee? honesty is the best. & furthermre, i cnt forget about, hym. haishhh.

Forget About Me

Wish That I Could Move On

Can't Let Go, It's Too Strong

Just Like That And Then You're Gone

Is This How You Wanted It To Be

Everything You Had To Say

Sent The Tears Right Down My Face

Now I'm Trying To Escape

The Misery

Why Don't You Love Me

The Way I Loved You

It Feels So Crazy

Cause I Dunno What I Did To You

If You're Gonna Hurt Me

Then Do It Quickly

Cause I'm Tired Of Cryin

If You Don't Wanna Stick Around

Then, Baby, Forget About Me

2009-02-26T06:05:00.000-08:00

spam urhh spam. HELPER & HELPER OF HELPERS. watever your name is. klw kecot, tetap kecot. knknkn? agree tkk HELPER & HELPER OF HELPERS. u should agree. SHOULD eyhh. cause, you are larhh okayhh. aku bobal psl dhe, ade menyusahkan kao tkk? ade? tkde knn. kao tahu aku bobal psl sape tkk? tkk tahu knn. jadik dudok diam2, buat hal sendiri, dudok satu corner suaa. aku memang bobal werld. beyhh asl? aku bobal werld pon pat dhe. bukan paat kao.

kao tahu tkk aku referring pat sape? klw kao tahu, TAG SUCKER

2009-02-24T01:36:00.000-08:00

i thought you were a good friend of mine. as we were in the ncc unit, together as one. there's soo many rumors boudd u tht i heard from the other platoonmates. but, i just ignore it& continue to be friends with you, cause i didnt see wat u have done. but then, recently i heard more& tonnes aboudd you from the others& what ive seen with my own eyes. i cant believe tht u are succha GOOD friend. sarcastic enough? this is wat ive heard larhh okayhh;
F - as your name starts with the letter.
A - your BFTE.
I&K - this two guys who is fighting for her.
Af - one of your& mine platoonmate.
H - the one who told me.
Fa - ex bf F.

IST;
H told me tht, I&K likee/have a crush on you, F. then, I&K fought because of you. && i heard from E(someone) tht u'r the one who started to msgg them & use this "i&u" linklink tingy. mengatal eyhh kao. k, done. nk due2 perr?
2ND;
Af have a crush on salman(?) u know about it. then, kyte semue dpt tawu, brape hari, kao da stead nan dhe. likee, WTF. Af reda larhh okayhh. tros, Af suke K, && dapat tahu jugakk, skrgg kao da rapat gyler babii dgn dhe. siakk jerr.
3RD;
F, kao mrhh orgg yg takk berslhh. kao da break nan sii Fa, beyhh si Fa nii da ade stead bru. && skrgg, kao tkk tentu psl tudoh mataey dhe ygg dhe lahh penyebabnyerr kao& Fa break.

recently, this is wat i heard urhh. but, there's moree uhh kayhh.
i dnt even care if I&K LIKEE you. andd kao ponn suke pat I&K.
but, I. aku dngr2 eyhh dari Z(smeone) ygg kao blang drgg2 mase pat library gini, "allissa msgg aku. tapy, aku tkk msgg dhe" ehh, kao klw nkk buat cyter, pandai2 urhh siol. weii. aku maseyhh ade msgg tuu uhh, yg kao reply. dngr2 kao tkk msgg aku pehh? pala buto. bbl werld arhh lu. kao dpan drgg, ckp laen, tp blkg drgg tk tawu ape kao buat knn? mcm siak. babi. kao pikir aku spare tyre kao perr siol?
aku geram nan kao sampai aku tertumbok si amirah eyhh. sorry uhh amirah.

&& F, aku bleyhh nampak A, da berubahh semenjakk dhe rapat gyler babi punyer dgn kao. dhe nan aku, okayhh, tkd pape. tp, dhe da berubah psl kao. understand? gyy larhh cermin diri kao dulu eyhh. kao nk attract semue lelaki perr siol? sileknn uhh. tapi, jgn sampai kyte hilang sabar beyhh sound kao sudaa eyhh.
klw kao ngaa bace nii, bgos urhh ALHAMDULLILAH.
aku memang bobal psl kao. beyhh, asl?

2009-02-23T05:26:00.000-08:00

today went to school as usual. wahhh. my laughing gas never cme lehh. ummirah& amirah. haiyooo! boringg tao. && my class change to level 1. cause, kc& shafiq leg injured. recess tym went hme, as i was sick. my father fetchh me. narii bnyk orgg balek siang sbb saket. && not to forget, thanks to my beloved friend who accompanied me. appreciate it lots. hanis, zarifah, lorraine, atiqah& moyang. lovee u all! reach hme, ape lagii. tdo larhh till 4. terok siaa allissa. then, wake up. && wie n alep just reac hme. & wie says, she have been waiting outside for half an hour. keciann dhe. naseb baek alep balek cepat horr. kyte ketawe rabak cmm dunie nii kite yg punyer. hah.

&& pastu, aidil msgg me. aidil! kao bobal alien language eyhh? tk fhmm seyhh aku. teehee :D

&& tht picture, *looks up* was taken just now. my mom just bought tht story book, NEW MOON for herself. i just take picture with it for fun. bsokk mls nk gy skolaa urhh. but, common test coming soon. okayhh, bye.

ohhh yaa, SHAKE YOUR BOOTY MONSTERS (!)

ps he speaks alien language .

2009-02-20T04:05:00.000-08:00

heyy people.
i just woke up from sleep.
tiredtiredtired larhh seyhh.
i will tell you every single thing tht happen during camp.
it rock, and it suck.

1st day of camp. 170209. tuesday.

hey! is mahsuri bte othman bdae yaww. but, i cnt spend my tym with her on tht day seyhh. i woke up at 5am. earlier then the usual. i bath, i eat, i drink, i pack. then, i get out of the house at 650 (?) paiseyhh u know, klw kluar lambat2. ramai orgg oii. i took the mrt uhh, didnt have the tym to wish wie happy bdae. so, i wished her by sms. ILY uhh girl. & there's this one spf chinese guy, lower sec, sec 1 i think looking at me, atas bawah. mcm ade hutang gtu ehh. i think cos i bring the army bigbig bag. thts why. waited for ummirah at the mrt platform infront of guardian. she arrived 5 min later, i think. she bring this bag mcm nk gy golf tournament the one tht can carry from the sidee only. she told me tht her mom asked her too bring tht& she also do told me tht, when she was tapping her ezlink card& when she was walking through the "tapping ezlink card place" she was stuck in the middle& she cnt go through. then, there's this one malay guy between his 20, behind her n say, "are u okayhh? do you need any help?" she say, "can you likeee, push me from behind?" & he did push. ummirah paiseyhh urrhh siol. me& her laughed likee hell. hehe. we took 291. & we drop at loraine's house. met loraine& arif. & each of us, kept complaining& comparing, "ehh, my bag bigg seyhh" hahahaa. we head to school. then, we assemble at the hall. after the flag raising, we have our quick breakfast. i have burger& mango tea. then, went bckk to the hall. we sat there for quite a lng tym. & thts the tym when the teachers must do the spotcheck. firstly, i hide my phone in the sleeping bag. but then, kechyk told me& say tht, "cikgu check gyler babi punyerr tao." & i was likee kimakk. mepek seyhh. aku simpan pat dlm coli aku. then, i quickly took out my phone from the sleeping bag& i put it inside my bra. i know it is disgusting. but then, wat to do? save mahh. after tht, one by one, we took the bus went to the diary farm horr. & our bus is beside 3c class. & i saw eqa. hakim sat behind me. & i told hym. "hakim. kao tengok sebelah, atiqah." & he look. hanis wanted to close the curtain so tht tkk silau knnn. then hakim says "ehh, dont. my girlfriend" byler bus da gerak bru dhe ckp okayhh. ahaahahaha. hakim, syggg kao jugak pat dhe ehh. ehehe. we reach at the place& we sat down at the faa (is a place likee parade square gtu uhh). im in group 3& my instructor is fie bee(: class by class went to their own hut (?) & put their own bag& all. each of us brought our own daypack& utensils to the canteen. we have rice& ayam masak kicap (?) for our lunch. bleyhh larhh tahan. group, 1-5 went for dragon boating. after lunch, my heart kt stu knn, saket gyler babi. idk why. but, is veryvery painfull. when, reach at kallang there. i told my teacher tht, my heart stu is painfull& it does seldom happen. they asked, wat do i do when this happen& do i go to the doctor? . & i say, i just rest, i didnt go to the doctor. waste money larhh. when i was resting, ms loh came, & lecture again. wth. layanknn jerr larhh siols. at night, we have night hike. we were in group of 10. there's nt girls too. is was pure darkk. veryvery dark indeed. when, i was walking. i was likee somesort of look around. & i saw there's this white figure& very longg hair ngaa tundok bwhh. i kept quite. & walk again, ade lagik satu. i hold hanis's hand tightly. & she asked "asl kao pimpin tgn aku kuat2?" i say, "tkd pape" walkwalkwalk. & pat dpan, kyte dngr yg group lagik satu pekik pat dpan. till the end. ade cmm branch nii jatoh then terperanjat urhh. i shouted, tp tkk lame& tkk kuat ehh. budak nt yg pekik kuat sial. teperanjat oii! lpas tuu, parveen nan sape ntaa lari. beyhh, my group line up knn, tros, si mdm ang tuu mrhh ckp, "3E! YOU ARE MAKING FOOL OF YOURSELF! YOUR THE ONLYY ONE WHO SHOUT!" aku da mcm, EHH JGN MAPEK URHH SIOL. PIKIR KITER PEKAK PERR SIAA? KITE DNGR UHH EHH, ADE ORGG PEKIK PAT DPAN. nk tipu agak2 urhh siol. likee fcukk urhh! all the way, my class kene mrhh, semue bende kyte buat, tk kene. cmm sial. si form teacher tuu= ms tikus. assist form teacher= ms babi. okayhh? OLRITEEE. after tht, went to the cmp site bckk. shower tym. fuuuuuh! bnykk orgg oii. kiwakk. tk leyhh angkat siols. me& hanis, just washed our hair at the sink siols. at least, wangi larhh knn. lol. then, i msg apit& asked for break. haizz. idk why. then, lights off.

2nd day. 180209. wednesday.

must assemble at faa at 650. but, woke up at 630. gerek or wat siols? bleargh. brush teeth, wash hair& wash face. see how smelly i am? must bare with it lehh. dah lambt siols. by the tym, im packing my day pack. all the girls instructors were outside our hut. & they scoldscold. watever. then, breakfast. we have nasi lemak (?) after tht, my group have the nature walk (?) uhhh. walkwalkwalk for 3hours+. kiwakk. bnykk nyamuk siols. eeeeeeeeee. then, our guide teach us using leaves how to make this somesort of shooting2 tingy. cool u know. very. after tht, have our lunch. & our high elements. scary oii. bleargh. is dinner tym. then, have our briefing all tht. bath, lights off.

3rd day. 190209. thursday.

booooooooo! assemble at 650 still. luckily not late eyyhh. have our team building tingy all in the morning. then, lunch. after lunch, have our camp fire preparation tingy. i dance& nervous. really. jay, doing the beatbox (?) tingy while the other boys do the hiphop stunt all tht. kc& shafiq is injured they went to hospital. after tht, have this station need to do sme activities. we were realease at 6 for bathing. but, me& my friends didnt. cos, we still gnne be sweating during the campfire wat. after tht, report at the canteen at 7. & have this cheeer like riot u knowww. it goes like this;
instructors: ADIJI ADIJI!
class 3a to 3d: AHH OOO AHH!
instructors: ADIJI ADIJI
class 3e to 3h: ZIM BOMB BA!
instructors pointing to class 3a to 3d: AHH OOO AHH!
instructors pointing to class 3e to 3h: ZIM BOMB BA!
at this tym we must actually say RA RA RA!
but then we kept repeating AHH OOO AHH & ZIM BOMB BA turn by turn. the instructors tried to stop us. but, we continued cmm riot gtu uhh. fun you knoww. hehehe. class by class went to the faa. seat where we are suppose too. have some cheer& then started the class performance. & my class is the 3rd one to go. nervous siols! dancedancedance. i think i didnt do well uhh. sorry guys. after all the perofrmance, the campfire have ended. owhhhhh. after tht, were realease. && yahh, me, ummirah, amirah, hanis& zarifah cmm orgg gyler tao. kyte gyle babi nyee pekik name, atiqah, zaki, ardilla, syazwani && moree uhh. amirah, make babi pehh suare. excactly the same. u should here it. hehe. then, bath. pack bag. lights off.

last day. 200209. friday.

yeayyyyy! last day mannn. woohoo! but today is veryvery short day. it sucks alot. tht, ms tikus bikin orgg hawthawtheat siakk. cb. before we do the cleaning area. the few people who at the front, tkd sabon. so, we just sit dwn uhh. then, tht ms tikus aleh2 pat sebelahh cmm bbl nan kyte. ckp, "wat are u suppose to do nw? why are u not doing it?" beyhh, orgg yg kat stu diam jerr. so, i stand up n ckp, "my one finish already uhh cher." then she say, "then, wat cn u do?" i say, "i asked then already, then they dont have uhh." (sarcasticly eyhh) dhe pon ckp, "then? you should tell your instructor ritee." nk elakkn daripada dhe membebel lagik, kuu tros angkat tgn & ckp pat instructor tu, "cher, i dnt have soap uhh." he say, "is ok" bgossssss. instructor tkk bnyk bunyii pehh. yg kao nk bnyk bunyi tu apehal siol. then, si ms tikus tuu, start membebel nan mdm ang. mdm ang okayhh jerr eyhh. dhe tk bnyk bunyi uhh cm kao, babi. after all the cleaning, we all sat inside the hut uhh. aleh2, si ms tikus tu msok hut& start to lecture, "eventhough u are at camp, u must still obey the rules. blablabla..." kimakk! last day pon nk lecture. rodok mulut dhe bru tahu. head to school, my father fetch me naek motor. && my father's motor is the one cmm nk py racing nyerr uhh. amirah ckp aku minah rempit. amirah, aku bukan minah rempit ehh. hakim, tu mmg bapak aku. beyh, asl? lol. kayhh, go hme. makan then tros tdo. veryveryvery tired u knoww. bleargh. i miss the fun/night during the campfire ONLY. && imy, FIE BE!

i know u looked at me, likee every single tym when group 1 to 5 were together.
hanis told me. & i can see tht by myself. kechyk told me too.
owhh, u'r damn cuteeeee! i likee u, cnn? haha!
saperr2 tahu, shhhssshhhh ehhh.
sape2 yg nk tahu, asked!
i miss looking at you bebeyh.

2009-02-16T05:36:00.000-08:00

pfftt!
tireddd seyhhh.
just finish packing beg for camp tmrw.
erghhhh. 3 nights 4 days camp.
no mood for camp siaa.
common test nkk dekat lagikk.
aperrsal laa ade camp klw common test da nk dkat knn?
otak letak pat bontot.
stoopid arse.
kayhhhh, blablabla.
bye.

bby, imysm.
ily.
cnn i have u in my lyf bckk?

2009-02-14T08:42:00.000-08:00

today went to pasir ris with my mom & 3 adq-adq.
i bought a ring again.
ermm, then head to hgg.
slept there, ngaji for a while.
6+ nearly 7, then head home.
my house, pat bwh blok ade kuda kepang.
me& wie go watch from 830 to 1030.
then, online urhhh.
then, dpt tawu bende from iffah.
im fcukking peace off with these two jantan starkarat olritee.
stoopid arse.
erghhhhhhhhhhhhhhh!
&& nasrin, i didnt expect tht this would happen.
i really appreciate ur kindness.
but, if its faith tht u are meant to be with hym.
then, just go on.

im crying.
i still cnt forget boudd you.

2009-02-13T04:46:00.000-08:00

currently doing malay project.
but, have the tym to post.
go to school as usual, went straight to class.
first four periods, f&n.
need to do coursework. soo manyy seyhh.
date due, next next wed.
then got this fire alarm(?) tingy.
assemble at the field.
mr ngio, physics teacher came to my class n say,
"later ill give you bckk the test paper. who get the question wrong, copy five times. who failed, copy 10 times/20 times."
when i heard tht, i was likee WTF?!
after tht, mother tongue. we manage to do some & almost complete it.
recess.
today food not sedap mann.
i approach eqa & asked her if she's okayhh.
cause, yesterday she cried again.
is okayhh to cry eqa. let your feelings out.
but, dont hurt yourself alritee.
ill be there for you(:
you see, how nicee i am. hehehe.
lol.
after tht, maths lesson.
i slow siaaaaaaa.
i kept asking mr malik(?) how to do.
azan & yan irritating bustered. but they are my laughing gas.
cedric walk around the class. his tall & i cant see.
zhong heng, i want sweet lehh!
yang, kept calling me "STRAIGHT' wth?!
hannnnnis, tk habes2 ketawe pat class.
gyler ehh?
there's soo many things to do. i must improve in my studies. is getting worst.
erghhhh! camp& common test is coming. stoopid or wat?!
common test is likeee next next week(?) & there's camp next week.
bleargh.
after maths, go met iifah& alep pat tamp inter.
we took 81 want to go pasir ris inter.
ade 4 springfielders, melvin& 3 lagyk tkk tawu uhh.
then, kiter tige tertdo.
byler bngon, da telajak sampai hougang.
soo, tron jerr laa. jumper wie.
then, me, wie & alep go hme together take 62.
byler ngaa naek 62, i sat behind.
& no one was there. dengar lagu 'pesanan buat kekasih'
i remember boudd hym.

Sewaktu kau melangkah
Meninggalkan diriku
Sebaknya rasa di dalam dadaku
Menahan titis air mata
Ingin aku berpesan
Kepadamu kekasih
Sekiranya engkau merinduiku
Hubungilah aku di sini

Jika ada kesilapanku
Maafkanlah diriku oh sayang
Dan izinkan aku bertanya
Mengapa kau berubah hati

Kiranya kau ada penggantiku
Tetapi hidupmu tak bahagia
Relaku memaafkanmu
Dan menerimamu sayang

Walaupun hatiku kau lukai
Namunku masih menyayangi
Kerana sehingga waktu ini
Cintaku masih untukmu

Oh sayang di mana kau berada
Janganlah kau lupakan aku
Ingatlah aku walau sesaat
Seorang insan yang terluka

&& is true. (im crying)
ohh, godd. plss help me. )':
i really really miss hym& i do.
haizz.
ily still.

2009-02-11T06:25:00.000-08:00

sian ehh.
haiyoo.
yesterday, 10fe09.
erghhhhhhh! the worst nightmare ever.
lol. i cried during assembly because of tht stopid fcukking teacher bnyk bunyi uhh.
stoopid arse.
&& they comfort me & i always heard this, "are u ok?are u ok?"
thanks to them. appreciate it loads. amira, hanis, ummirah, lorraine, zarifah, parveen & eqa.
anymore??
&& i must copy this one page physics tingy 10 times. cos, i never do tht page.
but i was absent tht tym siols. i dnt even know need to do sial.
he was flipping my paper, then he saw tht blank page, n asked, "why u never do?"
i say "cos, tht tym i never come."
he say "so?"
i kept quite. & he straight away take a red pen, & write. "10 times. 10/02. his signature"
watever.. naseb baek da habes.
kayhh, blablabla.
today, 11feb09.
tkd pape jadik urhhh.
no sp.
so, went hgg straight.
end.

imysm bby.
why cant i forget boudd you?
why is it soo hard?
haizz.

2009-02-09T06:23:00.001-08:00

feel relieve when u explain it to me.
again;
u kiss me.
u hugg me.
u are there besidee me.
u make me laugh.

u entered in my lyf again.
im thankful to god.
imy.

2009-02-08T06:20:00.000-08:00

ehh kao ehh klw nk bbl belakang psl aku jerr tkperr uhh.
tp, ni nan wie skali.
WTF?!
perangai immatured siols.
pade aku ehh, klw mataey beyh da break, bbl blkg, mepek uhh eh.
bbl blkgg tk maen uhh. kecol perr?
kao pikir aku pmpan, tk brani?
klw kao anak jantan, kao srgg then aku nan wie.
okayhh perr? klw kao btol2 anak jantan, kao cn take the risk lahh ehh.
eventhough i am a girl, i still fight for my rights uhh tk kire kao laki ke pompan.
jumpe kao bsokk uhh boi, kyte settleknn.
wansuayy.

2009-02-07T04:57:00.000-08:00

When you says its over, i STILL wants to be yours.
Imy and it really hurt inside and the pain NEVER really goes away.

imysm bby.

2009-02-06T07:48:00.000-08:00

ive been crying for days .
ily alot .
imy soo muchh .
i want you .
)':

2009-02-06T07:29:00.000-08:00

What is love, Love can't see you but you can't see it
Love is a sneaky thing I guess sort of slick

Love can hurt and Love can heal
Love can be born and Love can kill

Love has won and Love has lost
Love can catch and Love can toss

Love can stand and Love can fall
Love is small and Love is tall

Love is right and Love is wrong
Love is weak but Love is strong

Love is up and Love is down
Love can smile and Love can frown

Love is good and Love can be bad
Love is quite and Love can brag

Love is a little and Love is a lot
Love contiues and Love stops

Love can hope and Love can dream
Love can talk and Love can sing

Love can be a word or Love can be a ring
Love can be nothing or Love can be everything

So where is this thing we call Love
I dont know the only real love we have comes from above...

Daniel Chapman

bby , i cried because imysm .

2009-02-05T06:39:00.000-08:00

sometimes when im alone, i cry.
cuz im on my own.
the tears i cry are bitter and warm,
they flow with life but take no form.
i cry bcuz my heart is torn.
i find it difficult to cry on.
if i had an ear to confiding,
i would cry among my treasured fren.
but who do u know that stops that long to help another cry on.
the world moves fast and it would rather pass by.
then to stop and see what makes one cry so painful and sad.
and sometimes..
i cry and no one cares about why.

2009-02-05T00:08:00.000-08:00

130109-040209 .
it will be memories tht ill remember .
040209 the night/day tht ur letting me go .
i cnt believe tht ur letting me go .
i cried for one whole night cause i love you .
now still , im crying .
i just cnt let u go . i love you so muchh .
i have eyebags cause of crying the whole night .
im sick & i didnt go school today .
ive a bad headache .
indeed a really bad headache .
where's your promises tht u have made ?
i still remember your promises .
is tht all a lie ?
i cnt concentrate on my studies .
ive no appetite to eat .
ive no mood to talk to anyone .
wat should i do ? im crying .
i need you by my side .

i miss your laughter .
i miss the kisses on my cheek and lips .
i miss your hug .
i miss your joke tht can make me mad .
i miss the time that we have spent together .
i miss your night wishes .
i miss you , you , you .

i hope you will be mine again one day .

2009-01-30T22:28:00.000-08:00

hello .
long time no update horr .
lazy siaoww .
school days somemore .
wth ?!
hw many many seyhh .
tk leyhh angks .
seret pon tk leyhh urhhs .
wouldnt be active kayhh people.
thank qiewww .

ps ily ;

2009-01-15T07:14:00.000-08:00

hello .
todayy , slack with hanis , lela , adq yaya , fina , kechyk , bryan , fazirah , amira , bby eera , rara pat bk sanerr sampai kol 4+ kot .
then , ♥aim & yan jumper dkat2 situ , head to aljunied . yan da balek . me and ♥aim slack till 7 near my house . then , head home . bleargh . tomorrow ade ncc camp uhh . part a , 19 onlyy . bleyhh laa . kayhh , end .

ps . ily bby .

2009-01-13T05:46:00.000-08:00

heyy people .
today school as per normal . & i laugh alottttttt today with hanis . we likee crazy people . right hanis ? the worst thing that happen today is , when we enter into the classroom , we get scolded by miss loh . why ? cause she smell sweets . when she ask , who is eating sweet . no one respond or even raise up thier hand . && hanis told me that , parveen use these kinds of perfume that smells likee a sweet . because of that one small thing happen , each of us must open our mouth n were check by miss loh . wtf knknkn . first period was eng . bleargh . we must do the composition ingy . there's hw , must do the plan eyhhs . many of us didnt do except for 6 people onlyy . wahhhhh . bgoss skalii . then , the one who never do , must stand . me & hanis at the back , laugh non stop . & every word that she says that sounded diff for us , she will write at the board . as she say tht she have discuss with the class comittee n if any word that she find diff to understand she will write it at the board . we still yp eyhh ? phys and chem was okayhh uh . after that recess . then , is pure lit lesson . i must sit beside azan siols . hanis sat beside me too . hanis was likee bz sleeping & azan was likee talking to hymself , membebel sendiri . & i laugh alottt . social studies , boring . maths was quite fun uhh . me , hanis , sandy & xiao fu kept saying actually , eventually , unfortunately . we sat one row behind . & we laughlaughlaugh . mcm orgg gylerr urhh kyte . after school have ncc meeting . & we do nothing . fazirah & farah cry because of something . i head to hougang at 4 reach at 5 . joy , wendy , wie , yan , aim ade pat tingkat 9 . aku da sampai , tros tkd mood . idk why . tros aku gyy pat daerah rumah nyayi situ , relax satu corner . wie datang . tros , aku burst into tears . aku dont know why siaa . blablabla . have made my own decision . wie da stead nan yan . aku da stead nan ♥DHE . kayhh , blablabla . buat hal sendiri . kayhh , da . end .
&& i love them uhh .
♥my onlyy one , ♠B0IAC3♠
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Umar
wawa wawa
SIAOWW
SuperStar OWNS LOLLI .
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2009-01-03T09:20:00.000-08:00

1st day of school uhh.
woke at 0530 likee datt uhh.
should have been out of the house at 6 actually.
but then, 0615. becos off my motherr horr. latee uhh latee.
pagi2, imran, isa nan yan da msg. wooahh. p8 lame2 habes jugakk.
&& narii first day adq aku pat changkat changi. good luckkk eyhh.
take the train at 0630 gtuu uhh. dhe tron pat simei.
aku, adq, nan mak aku tron pat tamp. waste of tymm seyhs.
pegii pat 69 sane, bus ade double deck pehh. tros, naekk jerr uhh.
tngok dari luar, atas kosong siols. beyhh, pat bwh bnykk springfielders. tkkdee orgg pon yg naekk. springfielders conquer 69 uhh. bnykk orangg skalii.
69 pehh bwhh da full. pat atas, kosong siaa. bnykk orgg tk leyhh naekk 69 uhh.
tros sampai patt bus stop tron& waited for hanis. plan jumpe dhe pat bus stop.
bpe min, dhe da sampai. get to know, ms loh form teacher siols. maot perr.
blablabla. sec 1's tk bleyhh nampak clear uhh. ade spot check. then, kene caught uhh nan rambot dye pehh psl. naseb baekk dhe tk sroh kluar pyy dc. beyhh, fringe kene clip. merepek! cekgu daa laa supply knn clip, getah rambot, gunting semue pat dlm satu begg nii. pehh semangat. supplier perr . tros naekk klas, tingkat 4. siols jerr. tingkat 1, sec3 na nan sec4 na. tingkat 2, sec1. tingkat 3, sec2. tingat 4, sec3 exp nan sec4 exp. gini mcm, hari2 kene exercise. loose weight uhhh. then pat klas, class contact tym. beyhh, skirt kene tegoh sebab pendek. pendekk kerr? then, kuku ponn. kene potong. stokinn, ankle length. first day of school jerr, semue tkk kene seyhs.
ishishish. maot perr. lpas skola, ade ncc. incharge of the booth tingy. must wear no.3 uniform. firah, sya, amalina nan me. da buat plann untok booth. && bz next week psl this thing. balekk lambat, mlm uhh gini. kol 6+ habes ncc. then goo kfc& blablabla. reach home at 8+. carik skirt tkdee seyhs. mampos kao lisa. bbl sorangg eyhh. da biase. k, da habes. byebye.

allissa((:

2008-12-27T23:31:00.000-08:00

HAPPY 14TH BDAE UMAR.

2008-12-24T02:11:00.000-08:00

hello eartlings .
back .
im currently rotting at home like one I-D-I-O-T .
spelling right ? watever .
chatting with isa .
these kidd , so the irritating . *wide smile*
at least i have a friend to chat with .
no plan for today .
tomorrow , yes .
tron hougang uh abe .
tak habes2 hougang . why ?
ku pon tk tahu eyhs . LOL .
wieBUTTOCKs , iffahPANTATs & alif tag along .
yeayyyy .
bsok tron street soccer . maybe .
harap harap , favourite people kuu tron uh kayy .
mereka adalah :
adawieya .
arthiqah .
hairy .
isa .
imran .
umar .
kamil .
hafiz .
yan .
sufiyan .
yana .
gigi taufiq .
bear .

i think thats all ?
nii people aku treasure dalam dalam nyerr laa okayy .
hehehe ((:

baaahhh . im missing my friends many many lerr seyhs .
holiday ending soon . studyy tym . nanti ade uban .
eeeeeeeeeewwwwwwwww . okayy , golek .

allissaBONTOTs(: